🌈Love without borders (Yoonmin)✅

Goodbye my love

Jimin POV

Yoongi has been acting weird lately.
Whenever I take his phone to go onto his insta or anything really.
He grabs his phone out of my hand fastly, like he would hide something.
Does he cheat on me?
What is he hiding?

"I'm going out" he screams while grabbing the keys and putting on his shoes and jacket.
He's being weird again.
He never goes out unless it's to the supermarket nearby.
But when he goes he always shouts: 'I'm going to get some food, bye'.
Something is off.
So I put on my jacket, shoes and a scarf and follow him.
I'm disgusted of myself, I'm stalking my boyfriend.
But I wan't to know what he is going to do.
We are in the park nearby.
Why would he go to a park in the freezing cold of winter?
He sits down at an empty bench, staring into the distance.
I hide behind a huge tree peeking around the tribe of the tree.
Yoongi and I wait for ca. 5 minutes, when I notice a figure walking towards the bench.
As he comes nearer I realize it's Jihoon.
What the hell is Yoongi doing here with Jihoon, his ex?
I have a bad feeling about this.
A really bad feeling.
Something is fishy here.
And I'm right, I'm so right.
Jihoon pulls Yoongi into his embrace, then pushes him away to armlength and presses his lips onto Yoongi's.
In that moment my whole world breaks down.
Tears running down my cheeks, my heart aching, I run, because I just want to get away from here.
I don't even know where I go, I just let my feet carry me to whereever they want.
My vision gets blurier every second, tears spilling from my eyes endlessly.
My heart hurts more than it ever has before.
It's like someone violently riped it out of my chest causing the pain to be felt in my whole body.
I feel like I could run forever, but I won't be able to run away from reality.
And that is that I'm not loved.
I'm alone.
Nobody cares about me.
Everything was just an illusion.
The illusion that someone would actuelly be able to love the coward that I am.
How could I think someone would ever care about me.
I should have ended it all a long time ago.
I stop running and take a shacky breath.
I'm standing on an unfamiliar  bridge.
I have no clue where I am, but at this point I don't even care anymore.
I just want to end it all.
All the pain of being betrayed once again.
The lonelyness that will always be there forever.
So I climb onto the wooden railing.
I look down at the dark blue water how it reflects some of the sunlight to shine back at me.
I think of all the happy memories I made:
Yoongi standing up for me when everbody else was against me.
Him being the first friend that I ever had.
Him bringing me lunch to the rooftop when I didn't want to eat because other students said that I'm too fat.
Yoongi holding my hand in the hospital.
Moving in with him.
Reading his dairy.
Feeling finally at peace with the universe.
He confessing to me.
Cuddeling with him on the sofa late at night watching a movie together.
Him kissing me saying goodnight when he thinks that I already fell asleep.
Almost every happy memories is made with him by side.
But almost every pain I felt was caused by him to.
I smile sadly while tears start streaming again.
Goodbye my love...
I lean forward, the cold wind blowing my hair back...