~Authors Note: I have had this saved in drafts for a while now. I wasn't sure if I was ever going to post it. But now I think I want to share.~
I hate this feeling when I suddenly miss you; it's been so long I shouldn't even think about you. Every one has bad days though, and that's where the shadow of your memory seeps in. Its in that song we use to sing when it comes on the radio, or the roads we use to drive on our little adventures. Sometimes it's when something huge we dreamed of happens and I realize you're not here to tell it to. I know it must happen to you too. It's just in those tiny fleeting moments I miss you, how could I not? We were friends half our lives. It makes me angry and some days makes my heart break and I cry. I'm hurt because we were suppose to go through it all together, and petty shit got in the way . I'm sad because you never even tried to talk to me about any of it. I'm angry because you made shit up. But we all move on don't we? We pick our selfs up and move on. It's been one year now, and I don't know who you are anymore. I guess you could say the same about me.
Honestly I wish nothing but the best for you. I have no regrets for the memories we made I just wished I know how bittersweet it would be in the end.
~(Later addition):
I can say now that some time has passed I'm happy. I'm doing everything I ever wanted to do, and I hope you are too. An old friend told me you're going to be a nurse, that you finally got that Jeep, and I wanted to say I'm proud of you. I also herd about your health and I'm sorry it came back. Goodbye and good luck always, x your ex best friend. ~
