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„your hand meeting with mine,
As we connected them softly a smile plastered on our faces.
The cold night drifted over us as we lie on the roof of the building,
Not able to take our sight off of the stars in the sky that connected with each other in such a delicate way;
Unless if we were to take a moment or two to look in each others eyes."
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[Sunday, 10:34 pm]
At chan's house
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„been invited to chan's house to hang out; we had been tricked to find ourselves in the middle of a party, filled with obnoxious and drunken strangers.
Escaping the mere hell, we met outside only choosing to walk to the roof of a building and taking a moment with the other."

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//Hyunjin's pov//
"Can i hold your hand?"
I felt the sudden urge to hold Seungmin's hand, to feel his warmth. To feel loved for once.

I waited for an answer but he didn't respond, it was quite awkward and embarrassing, but then i suddenly felt his soft warm fingers surface my skin, and soothly rub my hand in circles. It gave me a tingling feeling but i also felt calmed down. Anxiety had been getting the worst of me a lot lately.

"Hyunjin, whats wrong?"

"Hmm?"

"Somethings wrong."
Something is wrong, i just cant think straight, i don't know how to think of anything at the moment, how to respond to his question, how to even say a full sentence. All i know is that he was right.

My voice only shook as i attempted to blurt out even a word, i suddenly couldn't as i felt a burning blockage in my throat. I couldn't say anything and i felt like crying.

"Hey, hey. Hyunjin take deep breathes, its okay I'm right here. You don't have to worry."

He ran his fingers through my hair, playing with little strands before running them back into the same pattern. This always made me feel at ease, but why a sudden pain? I possibly couldn't feel at any ease. Before i knew it my breath was staggering, i was feeling hot and my hands shook. All i could do was look at Seungmin, as tears forced themselves past my breaking point, where i suddenly just couldn't do anything.

"Hyunjin come on, what happened?? You're scaring me!" I felt like drowning, drowning in this invisible ocean. The ocean was dark and gloomy, it was tight on my body. Im guessing that i was deep in this ocean. Any moment now i could lose my breath.

Seungmin took me into his arms and caressed my back with one hand and continued the same circle motions on my shaking hands with the other.

Light appeared, but i was still deep in this ocean. I suddenly became unaware of my surroundings, my situation. What had happened.

All that i heard was the echo of a shattering voice that sounded rather scared. His voice terrified me too. I was scared and worried. But what is going on? And why is nothing changing? Im just running out of breath.

And just like that, the deep, dark ocean consumed me, its coldness striking me. I felt empty. The lightness, suddenly changed to complete darkness in the blink of an eye.

Im lost.