Never knew trying to just live your life was a crime.
I got to know that since that accident .
Since then people constantly make fun of me
fun of the things I'm not capable to do anymore
fun of my stupidities
fun of my imperfections
just of who I am right now
I was never confident about myself.
I was way too sensitive
Every single wrong word hit just right in that sensitive place somewhere
The place that hides somewhere in you but you just can't seem to find it.
The one that collects all these hurtful word and actions. Tries pushing them all away.
How long will it be able to carry so much pain without breaking ?
How long?
Today
Today I finally got the answer.
It's like all of a sudden someone just removed my heart.
Someone somewhere trying to find a cure for me .
But until it heals it is empty ,it's gone.
Wrapped in darkened pain forming a stone instead of what it's supposed to be .
A heart
Something fragile
loving
giving
sharing
beautiful
If I only knew how to use it.
But I don't .I became a hater ,a force user ,dumb and useless.
I don't want to be like this
Someone love me ,please
Cause I don't love myself
All because the heart I don't have
