School starts in three days and I'm not ready to go. I haven't ate in two days, my skin is pale, I look sick. The nightmares keep me up all night so I really dont sleep anymore. I haven't cried, self harmed or talked. I don't even make movements. I don't know whats wrong with me. I just don't feel okay. I feel discusting. I should have lost my virginity to the person I love, not a monster.
For the first time in days, I get off my bed. I tear the sheets of my bed and take the pillow cases off my pillow. I bunch them all together and walk down to the laundry room. Earning stares from everyone that were in the living room, I threw the sheets and pillow cases in the washer. Washing them makes me feel a little better considering no one washed them sense the incident.
"I should have washed those, sorry" Luke said. I stared at them not saying a single word.
"Are you okay? You look sick." James said. Again, I didn't say a single word.
"Cut the bull shit Isela, yeah you got raped but doesn't give an excuse to not talk or stop going to therapy" Marie spat.
"Marie!" Beau yelled.
"I don't really care anymore"she said.
"What is your problem?" Skip ask Marie.
"My problem? My fucking sister wont talk and it's killing me. She's taking this way to seriously!" she yelled.
"You don't think it's killing us either?!" Jai yelled. Ariana was still there and she walked over to me as everyone yelled at each other. She took me to my room and locked the door so none of the boys would come in.
"Sorry, I just think you should have to listen to them argue" I nodded my head as we heard yelling down stairs.
"This is all my fault" I whisper.
"No its not" she comforted me.
"If I would have stopped the party before it got out of hand, none of this would have happened." I said my voice filled with guilt.
"None of this is your fault, its no ones fault exept that monster's" she said her voice said in discuss when she said monster. The yelling from downstairs calmed down and it was silent.
Jai's point of view*
"I should have washed those, sorry" Luke said. She stared at us not saying a single word.
"Are you okay? You look sick." James said. Again, she didn't say a single word.
"Cut the bull shit Isela, yeah you got raped but doesn't give an excuse to not talk or stop going to therapy" Marie spat.
"Marie!" Beau yelled.
"I don't really care anymore"she said.
"What is your problem?" Skip ask Marie.
"My problem? My fucking sister wont talk and it's killing me. She's taking this way to seriously!" she yelled.
"You don't think it's killing us either?!" I yelled. I was pissed. She has no idea what Isela is going through, none of us do. Just than, Ariana got Isela and took her to her room.
"She is so depressed up in her room , for gods sake she does even know Ariana's grandpa died!" Marie yelled
"You don't know what it's like to be raped, do you? No! So just stopping being so selfish!" I yelled. She looked down as she was hiding something, no one spoke.
"Marie?" I ask. No reply.
"Marie" I said again. She didn't make a movement.
"MARIE!" I yelled. She finally looked up and I saw the tears spilling out her eyes.
"I do know what it's like. So don't you ever assume things if you don't know your facts!" and with that, she ran out the front door and left.
