After leaving the hospital, I was silent and didn't speak. Not because I was upset or sad, I didn't speak because I was tired. I'm tired of going through the same thing everyday. Marie hasn't been home sense that night but I could care less. The boys already filled out a missing report but we haven't heard from the police sense.
Luke decided I wouldn't go to school for awhile, but he had got my work for the next two weeks. I was just tired of life right now. I feel like I'm ruined, I feel like I have no purpose. I know, everyone has a purpose, but me? Well, I'm just a thirteen year old girl who has depression but no one cares enough to seem to notice.
The boys are going on tour next week and I won't see them for awhile. Turns out, while the boys were in Mexico, Ariana's grandpa died and well, Jai wasn't there for her so they broke up. I miss Ari, she was a really sweet. She was going to take care of us while the boys are on tour but now we will have a seventy- four year old nanny. It just kind of sucks because I was really looking forward to having Ari around but Jai screwed up.
James called me down to come eat, which I couldn't say no to this time sense Beau literally put me over his shoulders and took me downstairs. Picking at my food, I took small bites but only ate about 1/4 of it. Everyone else ate in the living room as they watched footy I assumed. I dumped my food in the bin and walked to the room with the piano. I haven't touch it in awhile. I sat down, and pressed a key. Pressing another, I start to play a song that is really old. I remember it being the first song I ever learned. I finish up and get up, and start to walk around the house. Being the nosy person I am, I ease drop on the boys conversation.
"I just don't know. It doesn't seem normal. Marie is somewhere out there and Isela isn't her normal self. I feel like everything is just.. falling apart. And us leaving for tour in a week isn't going to help" Lukes voices says.
"Mate, everythings going to be fine. Isela will have the Ms. Susan(the nanny) and once they find Marie everything will be fine. Just give it time" James says calmly.
"It just doesn't feel right. Maybe we should have waited y' know? We are young and taking care of two teen girls is just a lot of pressure. I don't even know what I was thinking that day.." Luke trails off. The tears build.up and I try to blink them away but they spilled out anyways. He regrets adopting us. He regrets adopting me. I run up the stairs and lock myself in the room. This is all my fault. I am the cause of their stress. I am the cause of Marie running off. I am the cause for everything. Maybe if I hadn't been so selfish we wouldn't be in this mess. I'm such a failure. I'm a mistake. I walk in my bathroom and lock myself in. Grabbing the razor, I feel the all to familiar sharp medal digging into my wrist.
I'm pathetic.
Slice.
I'm worthless.
Slice.
I won't get anywhere in life.
Slice.
I'm ugly
slice
I began to feel dizzy so I grab the door knob, using all the strength I have left in me to pull myself up. But being the clumsy person I am, I slip over the blood that lyes on the white tile floor. Hitting my head on the corner of the counter, I groan in pain before hearing banging on my bedroom door. Than everything went black.
Beau's POV*
"I'm going to check on Isela and give her her medicine" I say and get up. I grab her pills from the medicine cabinet and walk up the stairs. I knock on her bedroom door but it was silent. Maybe she was sleeping. I turn around but stop once I hear something hit the ground and a groan from her bathroom.
"Isela? Isela! Open the door!" I cry, banging my body against her door.
"Fuck, why are you yelling man?" Jai askes.
"Help me open this door dammit!" I yell. We both hit our body's against the door before it breaks. I run to the bathrom door and twist the knob, but it was locked. I looked down to see blood coming from under the door and I freeze.
"LUKE CALL 911" I yell. I begin to break down the bathroom door until it opens. By the time I get it open, the boys are up here in shock. I grab her fragile body and begin to cry. She may be just my niece, blood or not, she is family.
"Someone do something. She's dying!" I cry. I check her pulse, she's still alive. But she's losing blood, a lot of it.
"The ambulance are on there way" Luke says and sits down on her bed and begins to cry in his hands. Jai runs over and comforts him, followed by Daniel and James. I hold Isela in my arms, waiting for the ambulance to get here. As if on cue, the paremedics barge in and grab Isela out of my arms. They take her away as I run outside, watching them take her. Luke gets in the ambulance car with Isela and the boys and I agree to meet them there. I don't even bother to change my bloody shirt, and I grab my car keys. I rush to my car as the boys jump in. But before I get in, I see a figure across the street. An all too familiar figure.
"Marie?"
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A/N
hey guys! Sorry for the wait. School has gotten me busy and I have been dealing with a lot lately but I quickly wrote this for you guys because I am currently on Thanksgiving break. I go back in three days though :( There are only a couple chapters left to this fanfiction and I really don't want to end it soon. Please vote/comment/share for faster updates. Please go check out my other fanfictions:
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Dance » Calum Hood
You're All That Matters To Me ( Luke and Beau Brooks) this one one was my first ever fanfiction so kinda sucks but check it out if you would like.
Daddy's Little Girl » Hayes Grier (which this one sucks ass and i might delete later. idk yet)
They are all still being written but "You're All That Matters To Me" & "Daddy's Little Girl" will be ending soon. Okay, this a/n is kinda long so goodbye. ily guys, stay strong and if you ever need anything don't hesitate to dm me on twitter (@inkedcalxm)
- xx wreckless_beau
