Vent

I don't want to say goodbye..

I think too much. My nightmares are always horrible. I'm sorry for bothering you during the night when these things happen. I'm scared it's going to push you away.

When you told me that you needed to tell me something, I got so scared...I thought you were going to leave me..I don't want that..You mean the world to me. I love you more than anything.

I promised that I would never leave you. I'll always keep you in my life in one way or another. You may leave me, but I swear that I'll never leave you.

You're my Angel. And I seriously love you.

I don't want to lose you..That's my biggest fear.

Losing you.

You've promised me that you won't leave, that I'm stuck with you. But I'm the only one who ever seems to stick with that promise..

I'm scared you'll be like some of the ones who have left after saying they never will...it always happens...

Everyone who I've cared about has left. Because they saw me for who I used to be. I made one decision that didn't even affect them and they left like that..I'm scared you'll do that too.

I'm scared that you'll see me for who I used to be. I was terrible. You know that. I'm scared you'll start to think that I haven't changed. I'm scared that you'll end up hating me..That you'll leave because you can't stand me.

I hate thinking like this, but I can't help it..

I don't want you to leave me.. and I'm so scared that you will...