02 U | NCT Johnny

Chapter 25

Daeun was speechless with his confession. Instead of feeling touched and warm, she felt pain and miserable. "Taeyong.." was the only thing that came out from her mouth.

"i told you. I'm crazy. I can't think straight. Everyday after practices, after showcase, after events, I would always look for my phone to tell you how my day went. I was like a child you know. At times, I felt mad for being like this but at times, I felt this was somehow an escape for me."

He sighed. "I had no life. Back when I was a trainee, back when I was a student, I didn't focus much in life. I would always be engulf in my dreams. Now that I achieved my dream, I realized I didn't experience much about life. So different with Youngho." he smiled sadly. "He experienced a lot while achieving his dreams. He had his friends. He had a life. He has a life. He worked harder."

Daeun couldn't help but to let a tear fell. Taeyong panicked. "W-why are you crying.."he sat down and she instantly sat down too, wiping her tears. "how am I supposed to respond to this? How am I suppose to accept you? Taeyong if I don't have Youngho, if I meet you first, I swear, I'll cherish you with all my heart. I swear... but I'm with Youngho. I cant.." she sobbed. "... we cant...he's our friend.."

Taeyong watched her who was looking down crying. Why was his presence, his confession made someone cried so much?

He inched closer and pulled her into his embrace. She cried harder. It was a rare thing for her to be treated like this whenever she's down and crying. She was so used to crying alone and suffering alone and when someone comfort her, mere affection, she would breakdown even more. Daeun cried harder in his embrace, wetting his shirt with her tears while repeating 'sorry'.

Secretly, he let a tear fell too. He never knew that love could be this painful before. He never knew someone's heart can be this crazy and unpredictable.

"maybe one day.. maybe in another life.. we would be together."

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Taeyong woke up first that morning only to find Daeun was still sleeping on his arm but her face wasn't facing him. She cried the whole night because she felt so guilty about everything and she just wanted to make everything right without hurting anyone and end up falling asleep while crying and mumbling. He felt even worst too. He knew it was wrong but he wanted it. He longed for it.

He slowly wrapped his other arms around her and closed his eyes, resting his head against the back of her head. Maybe its time for me to move on.. he told himself while caressing her arms softly. He had always imagine this moment of them together. Just laying down together, caressing each other. Out of the blue, her hand reached his and intertwined them together. She pulled it closer to her face and he could feel her damp cheeks.

She's crying again.. he told himself. A moment later, he could feel the warm tears felt on his hand and her fingers trying to wipe it off. He just smiled at her cute actions. God.. I want her. I really really really want her... he prayed quietly.

"Taeyong..?" her voice was hoarse and cracked. He hummed softly. "You're awake?" he just hummed again. "I missed my classes today. When is your flight?" she asked with her morning voice.

"i took a one way flight ticket to your place so I can go back anytime to be honest," he told her. Daeun just nodded and played with the rings on Taeyong's fingers. "Okay then but you have to pay for everything since I don't have my money today.." she said and that made him chuckled. "Even if you have money, I wont let you spend it on us."

The word 'us' made both of them to feel the tiniest spark in their chest. If only..

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After showering and got ready, they went to the nearest cafe to have their breakfast before heading to the nearest mall to hang out. Taeyong was also finding some new accessories to wear and was hoping to find some nice caps to wear.