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I Wish (meh)

Yes I am aware this is the third place this has been posted, but i want as many people to see it as possible.

I wish so much somedays I could just be on the level of low that you are. taging you in things like this to show everyone how you just are here to fuck me over. I wish i could get myself to do that but I am sorry I can't do it. I wish I could sometimes. I always wonder how you sleep at night knowing your the reason behind someone's scars, suicide attempts, and new self harm. How can you sleep knowing how much of a monster you are? How when I would confront you all you would do was laugh. I'm not blaming you for the scars that will cover my body for the rest of my life. but i will blame you for making me feel as worthless that you made me feel, how you chased away everyone in my life. Made me believe you, took your beatings, thinking thats what I was made for, but then you  find out the truth of what happened to me and you some how act as if nothing ever happened. YOU showed up at my house, You knew my every move, You knew damn well excatly what you where doing. But yet you still lack to take resposabity for everything You put me through. I hope one day you get slapped across the face with reality, knowing that I am here at 4 in the fucking morning, writing this letter to you. Knowing everything you did to me and knowing what you made me do. I have your fucking name ingraved in my arm, that was form the night after the first beating from you, after you saying and doing everything you did in class that day, I was trying to kill myself that night. I failed, no one wondered where i was the next day or why when I came back i had black eyes why i had that stench like i was dying, why my hands where ice cold, why it looked as if i had been droped on the side of the rode. News flash buddy it was because of you. Not a single day goes by without me crying over the fact I FUCKING FAILED AT ENDING MY LIFE! I wouldn't have suffered everything i went through. Honestly I don't know how you got away with everything you did to me, but i will make you this promise, I will Never stoop to your level. I am 14 I should have been able to enjoy being a kid but no Now I have to worry if everything is hidden if my smile looks to fake, if someone finds out, I have to worry about what would happen if I run into you again. I should be able to talk with my friends, oh wait my friends all left me because of you and your fucking rumors, What did I ever do to you? How can you sleep at night knowing how much of a monster you are, how much pain you put me through, how you ruined my life? I just wish I knew why.