I feel physically sick. Like I don't want to eat because I just want to puke it back up. I just want to lay in bed and do absoutly nothing. I just want to be able to disappear and not come back. I just want to get out of my head and be okay. But will that ever happen no. I'm not good enough for anyone. I care too much about the people in my life, that when they decided to leave I feel sick. I try so hard to keep my walls up so I don't get hurt, but sometimes I can't help but falling for someone who seems so perfect. I'm scared that if I open up to someone that I feel would understand that they will leave too. Why can't life be easier, because I have no time to myself and I don't really have free time. Maybe I should just give up on trying to be better and just realize that I'm bound to be a failure for the rest of my life. My anxiety and depression are really getting to me to the point I can't function properly. I can't sleep hardly and I just don't want to do anything. Please I just want to be okay but I know I won't be.
