Changed by Love

Chapter 6

I sat in the back yard, the rain was pouring down like a bucket of water been thrown over me, it was cold, wet and windy but I really didnt care if I caught and cold or flu, possibly pneumonia. I just sat there, in the rain thinking about all the problems Ive called upon my family. Why couldnt I be a better person, I dont even know who I am anymore, Im going crazy my brain is everywhere thinking about everything, Ive always thought about my family but they believe I think about myself, have no heart, no compassion just a selfish little bitch.

"Hey hey hey, come out of the rain youve been out here for ages your gonna get sick" Justin shouted out of his bedroom window. "I dont care, thats what I am a person who doesnt care" I replied quietly, "Come On man get out the rain" He screamed. " Is it fucking bothering you? Me out in the rain, are you gonna get ill? or is it me?" I yelled back. Justin kissed his teeth and shut the window, I cut my eyes back after him and turned away.

I was out here for an extra half an hour and since Justin kept annoying me to get inside, I finally did. Justin was in the living room drinking vodka or something, I could smell the strong stench from outside, he was crying and smoking, I walked slowly to him and he jumped off of the chair and ran towards me and pushed me back to the wall, he was squeezing my shoulders tight and forcing me to the wall like he wanted me to go through the bricks.

"Ow Justin" I screamed out in pain and tried to force him off me "What are you doing? Your hurting me!" I moaned loudly, "Shut up and keep quiet" Justin shouts and throws me on the floor making me hit over 3 chairs on the floor.

I slowly move up into a sitting position and Justin sits next to me holding my rists tightly. "You have to come with me Sapphire and you can't say anything" he whispers and let's go of my rists and holds my face, I put my hand over his and look deep into his eyes, a tear falls from his face and hangs his head down, "Can't say what Justin?" I reply pulling his head towards my chest, I feel a sharp scratching sensation in my back and I collapse, my vision becomes blurry and my skin feels blistered, my head keeps spinning and I start to feel sick.

I keep getting nightmares that I've been kidnapped and used for a slave. I was going crazy all the sweating showered down heavier on me, I felt like my nose had been blocked and my mouth been stuffed with cotton, I kept getting scary thoughts in my head each time I tried to catch a breath, the pain was getting worst and I couldn't help it in anyway I felt tied up I couldn't get out of the knot I was in, I tried screaming out to Justin but my voice went and I couldn't do anything, I was helpless and just waiting on the pain to take my life.

"Babe babe babe babe" Justin yelled out to me "Wake up". I was shaking and I felt one hundred percent lighter than I ever was, "Sapphire" Justin bellowed and started trying to wake me up. "Argh" I groan out in pain and suddenly wake up out of the nightmare I was having, I realised I was in bed and felt so much comfier.

Justin held me close and squeezed me tight, I moan again the pain felt like it was draining me all the energy inside me just vanished. Justin squeezed the area where the blistering pain was coming from, "Ouch ow ow ow" I screamed the area was tender "Justin ow please stop", "Sorry babe show me where the pain is coming from", he slowly pulls me up out of the bed.

I walked towards the mirror and Justin came up close behind me and takes off my blouse, I turned around and looked at my back, the lower area was bruised black and blue and the area around it was red. "I'm sorry Sapphire I honestly didn't wan- mean to" I turn my head around to face him "YYYou did this?" I asked, "Yes I did" he declared in shame "I'm hurting Justin you put me in this pain why did you do this to me?" I yelled "I was drunk stuck in the moment I knew you wouldn't take it if I asked you to so I gave it to you another way", "Are you fucking serious Justin? You drugged me and left me in pain and you decided to use me, you don't even call me your girlfriend but yet I am so as your so called girlfriend, I was a great opportunity for you to drug me, you don't love me really do you Justin" I exclaimed, Justin was standing there silent he didn't even bother to answer me, "This is a joke I'm leaving this place" I scoffed and took my time walking towards the door. Justin raced me to the door and blocked the way "Sapphire you don't understand how much I love you, your the best thing that has ever happened to me when I was locked up I lost my family, my mom don't want me back with her, my dad doesn't care about me and I'm left without no body, Sapphire I love you more than anything and you've been my saviour saving me from my own disgraceful ways and I can't thank you more for that" Justin exclaimed. It made me smile and my heart warmed up till I completely forgot about the pain, "I love you too" I declared and pulled his face to mine, he put his arms around my waist and held me tightly "I love you Sapphire" He whispered into my neck, I smiled and the pain struck again and I remembered that Justin did this to me, I pushed Justin off me and walked forward through the door.

I flopped on the bed and just randomly started laughing and thought about how mad the teachers must be that I won't be returning to school any time soon, Justin is my teacher and I'll learn from him I don't need school to tell me my ABC and 123, the shit I've been through since being in that school could write me a book and a biography, I was tired of that place and I wish I never went there but I'm happy I met Justin to say the least.