For You, My Love

Leaving is the hardest

You cried today. I blame myself for that. You deserve to smile and laugh, not to cry and be scared.

I had to go for an hour or two and you were so scared that I wasn't going to come back. I'm sorry Angel. You don't deserve that.

I know it's hard when I leave, as is the same with me when you have to go. Being away from you for even a minute tears me apart. I love talking to you, it's amazing.

I hate the distance between us.

I miss you all the time, even if we're talking. But because of our distance, I'm worried that you'll want to leave me.. It's hard. I just want to be able to hold you in my arms. To feel the rise and fall of your chest. I miss you.

But back to you.

You told me today that I would eventually get sick of you. Oh how very wrong you are, my love. You still don't quite seem to understand that I'm not going to leave you. I promised I wouldn't and I'm keeping that promise. You may leave me, but I'll never leave you Angel. You're my world. You've helped me so much and you mean everything to me. I don't know where I'd be without you. I love you with all my heart.

I know recently you've been sad because you've been everyone's "Second choice". I know I've said it before, but I'll say it again and I want you to think about it.

I know it's hard. I know how much it hurts to have people leave you behind, to pick someone over you. It's the worst when you care for that person dearly and they change and seem to forget about you. I know it sucks, it's awful, but it's just a part of life. Everyone comes and goes, even if we don't want them to. There's not much you can do. But don't let these people drag you do. Don't spend your time focusing on someone who left you in the dirt. Don't cry over someone who won't care. Move on. I know that's easier said than done, as I still have not let go of some people who have let go of me.

But do your best. Find others who support you and that you can depend on and trust.

Again, I know it sucks to be the second choice, but there isn't very much that you can do my love.

But whatever happens, please remember this:

You're absolutely amazing. No matter what anybody says or does, you're amazing. Keep your head held high. Don't let people bring you down Love.

I know that you're strong. I believe in you. And if you ever need someone to lean on, to fall on, I'll  be here to catch you. I'll always find my way back to you no matter what happens.

So don't waste your tears thinking that I won't be coming back. I always will my love. I'm staying right with you.