Poems

Someone

Inside my head, is a very dark place,

Filled with negativity, depression and one particular face.

He’s always there, taunting, laughing, scorning.

I clutch my head, lying in bed, until the morning.

The morning comes and it’s time for school.

Time to face everyone, time to get ridiculed.

I see him, he’s waiting for me.

I turn my head, not wanting him to see.

The look on my face, the look of absolute fear.

But he spots me, and now he’s coming over here.

I’m trembling and he’s laughing.

There’s a crowd now, all eagerly waiting.

Waiting for him to do something, something to hurt me.

I’m shaking, looking at the ground, wishing for someone to see.

To see that I need help, that I can’t hold it in anymore.

That I’m tired, I’m tired of going to bed sore.

My parents don’t hear, nor do they care.

My cries at night, or the tears.

I’m brought back to the present, by the feel of a slap on my face.

I look up at him and blink my eyes, as he’s laughing and taking things at his own pace.

I feel another slap and another, one by one on my face.

But I show no emotion, even if it pains, and blood is all I taste.

Finally they leave, him leaving last.

I stay there, long after the first bell had past.

I slide to the ground, finally letting it all out.

Knowing then, that I had lost.

I couldn’t keep it in, not any longer.

Because I longed, I longed for another.

Someone who understands, who felt my pain.

But I know my waiting will be in vain.

For everyone hates me, my parents too.

I stay there until someone comes, and I’m hoping, I’m hoping that someone will be you.