Osmosis

Chapter 2

Ashton's P.O.V.

I get out my blade as soon as I get home. I roll up my sleeves to see all the scars I've already made.

"One for the books," I say as I drag the blade across my wrist, watching as the blood trickles. Then I switch to my other wrist.

"One for the backpack," I make another slice.

"One for the paper,"

"And one for the words."

Why me? Why can't Kami ruin someone else's life? What have I ever done to her? I try so fucking hard to care about everyone and this is what I get in return. Great.

Well, it will all be over soon. Because tonight is the night.

I grab my jacket and silently walk out the door.

I'm walking about 15 minutes before I reach my destination. The bridge.

It's built right over a river; the perfect place. And best, no one will be able to find me and pretend they cared. I climb on top of the rails and spread out my arms.

Just as I was about to let go and jump, I hear a voice.

"Why world, why did it have to be her? why couldn't I have a decent parent that actually cares? Why?" it sounds like a girl.

I need to jump before she comes this way and finds me.

Kami's P.O.V.

I am walking aimlessly around town when I reach a bridge. I start kicking rocks.

"Why world, why did it have to be her? Why couldn't I have a decent parent that actually cares? Why?" I am almost crying. It just isn't fair.

When I look up from the ground I see a figure standing on the rail of the bridge. I start walking, getting faster and faster. I sprint as fast as I can when I realize who it is.

Ashton.

"No!" I scream as I am almost to him. Startled, he turns to look at me, then turns back to the water.

"Please Ashton, don't do this!" I plead, tugging at his jacket.

"Shut up Kami," He says in a monotone voice. I'm shocked by his words, it takes me a moment to register what he said.

"What?"

"Don't pretend that you care. You're who pushed to do this, all of this!" Ashton yells as he jumps down and walks toward me. I am confused as he starts to roll up his sleeves.

"Ashton..."

"These are from you! Every fucking day I have to feel your wrath. What did I ever do to you? I don't even know you, so why do you hate me?"

I look down at his arms, which he is forcing closer and closer to me.

Scars.

So, so many scars. I cover my mouth with my hand, gaping at the sight.

I don't even know what to say.

I look at his face. Almost as many tears are covering it as the scars on his wrists.

I step forward.

"No. Get away from me. You'd be happy for me to die, we both know you would." Ashton says as he rolls his sleeves back down, putting his arms at his sides.

"Ashton please, listen to me." I plead.

He looks at me and tears are still continuing to stain his face. Pain fills my entire being.

"Ashton, I'm so, so sorry. My life fucking sucks. My mom's a drug addict with a druggie boyfriend. My dad left before I was born. I have no friends. I get beat almost every day when I go home," I say as tears begin to form in my eyes. His face seems to soften, so I continue.

"Yesterday my mother hit me so hard that I was knocked out for 2 hours. But that's not the point. The point is that I focused all my anger on you and you deserved none of it. In fact, my mom is the one that deserves it. All of it. But she's never going to get it. Just please, please don't do this Ashton. Please, don't end it all because of my anger."

Ashton's P.O.V.

Wow.

I had no clue what she goes through. It still doesn't make any of it okay whatsoever, but at least now it makes sense.

I stepped toward her and she had a confused look on her face, with tears dripping on her cheeks. I took her in a full embrace and cried. I don't care if guys aren't "supposed" to cry, I did anyway.

Kami hugged me back and cried hard into my shoulder. A full on pity party.

But through all the hate, we found a way to somehow comfort each other that night.