Butterfly《mostly bangtanvelvet》

Jin x Oc

Wake up

He went to the hospital like always, dropping flowers, visiting someone, talking to her. He does it almost everyday.

He looked at his lover one last time before going home.

It was cold. He cuddled up his jacket against his body even more and rubbed his hands together creating friction to warm him up.

As he walked to his house he couldn't help but be reminded about her pale face, it looks so lifeless although it was still beautiful. He smiled bitterly to himself as he waits for her to wake up.

It all happened because of him.

Flashback

"It's not what it looked like he was the one who started it" she explained.
Jin growled and looked at her angrily. "Tell that to f*cking life" he turned around.
She was in the verge of tears.
"Just let me explain" she tried catching upto Jin but he didn't give  a sh*t.

As they crossed the road she didn't notice the truck that was heading their way. He just kept walking.

She was following him but they both didn't know.

....

He turned around once he heard the crash. His eyes widened at the sight. The girl he loves was now covered in blood.

He rushed up to her. He held her tight while crying. He called an ambulance. They then put her on a stretcher.

He saw how her bloody body was taken to the back of the ambulance.

It hurts... it really hurts.
He wants to stab himself for not listening, he wanted to chop off his limbs for not even hearing her side of the story, he wanted to overdose himself for not being able to control his anger.

It hurts... hurts is an understatement. He felt like a peanut butter spread without his jelly.

She was admitted to the O.R.

The nurses stop him from going any further. He just sat down and sighed out of frustration. Soon that frustration turned into anger, and that anger turned into sadness and longingness.

All he wanted was for him and her to make up but it turned to be the opposite.

The lights turned off and he immediately stood up. He approached the doctor.

"How is she?" Jin asked,
"Truth is... she is stable but... she was two months pregnant" the doctor admitted sadly. "...but we couldn't save it"

I don't know if I should be happy that I know she's fine or the fact that because of my ignorance and low anger tolerance that was the reason as to why I lost my child.

Yes! I admit it, we did something, but I never knew it'll be like this.
I'm so sorry... jagiya

Present time:

Kim Seokjin's p.o.v
I held the coffee mug with both of my hands in hopes of warming me up, but no use.

The only one who can warm me up is her smile. Her laugh to brighten up my day. Her face to make me feel no pain.

A sigh escaped my lips as I stood up and took my coffee out of the coffee shop.

She always had a taste in coffee she was the reason why I started drinking this coffee.

She said it will always leave a very pleasant after taste in your mouth.  It was not so sweet and not so bitter. Just right, just like her.

We met when we were kids. She was my childhood friend. I developed feelings for her back in middle school. I know cliché right? But who cares. As long as it's love it's fine.

I was supposed to meet up with a friend today. Our meeting place was at the park.

I approached the park and saw him there.
"Yo, Jin ma bro" he smiles at me.
I smiled at him and took a sip of my coffee. "Something the matter Seungcheol?" I asked with a raised brow.
He shook his head. "Nothing really but... I just wanted to ask you how are you feeling?" He asked putting an arm around my shoulder.
I sighed at his question. "Same old same old, waiting for her to wake up and getting the fact that I killed my child outta my head" I took a sip of my coffee again.

He sighed.
"When are you planning to get a girlfriend?"
His question made me spit my coffee.
"Is that a question or a dare?" I glared at him.
"A question, not offend your girlfriend or anything though" he said sweatdropping.

I sighed and crumpled up my cup. I let out a frustrated sigh.
"Whatever happens, whether she wakes up or not, she'll be the only one I love" I then bid my goodbye to him and went to my house.

I opened the door with a sigh. I placed my shoes near the door neatly. I then started cooking dinner... for myself.

I sighed at the thought.

After cooking I then ate. As I was washing the dishes, I heard the telephone ring.

I answered it lazily.
"Hello?"
"Hello this is the hospital may I speak to Mr. Kim"
"Speaking" I sighed.
"Ms. Kuk is awake"

My dear jagiya is awake...

I rushed to the hospital and went in her ward. She was there looking at the ceiling.

I approached her. She smiled bitterly at me. She reached her hand and I took it gently.

"Your warm... Jin?" She asked as if she couldn't see me. The doctor came in with sadness in his eyes.
"Mr. Kim, she... lost her eyesight"

My eyes widened.
I looked at her softly crying.
"So... I'm b-blind?" Jia asked,
"I'm afraid so, Ms. Kuk" the doctor bows and goes out.

"At least you're alive" I carressed her cheek with a smile. She smiled back.

[Sorry if it ain't btsvelvet, this idea is gonna rot so I posted it sorry for typos]