Everywhere || Kolvina

I Wasn't That Cruel

AN: Guys it's been months and months since I've updated. College really got me, but here's a sad angsty little one shot, because I'm an evil bitch🥰

Prompt: Kolvina has been thriving in New Orleans as a couple for the past two years, but what if a certain miracle medical condition throws a wrench in all the calm and peace their relationship has been experiencing.

KOL'S POV

"Kol...please say something." I could hear the desperation in Davina's voice as I held the pregnancy test in shaky hands.

Her voice was muffled by the deafening sound of my heartbeat in my ears. It couldn't be possible, Hope Mikaelson the miracle baby was one thing but a second Mikaelson child...my child.

"I kept telling you I've been feeling weird for weeks now. My magic going haywire, feeling even stronger than before." Her voice was rushed and I could sense the heightened level of panic, "I had an episode..." She whispered the last part quietly.

I stared at her as her lower lip trembled, her eyes shiny, "Some guy made a move on me at the record store, he wouldn't leave me alone, and I set his jacket on fire Kol. I didn't even mean to and I put him in the hospital with half his face melted off." She choked out.

This was all news to me. I had remembered her mentioning that she had felt a magical surge this last month but I had brushed it off until now. Obviously a big mistake.

I couldn't even get my lips to form a response as I continued to stare at the positive sign on the plastic screen. Leaving Davina to keep rambling,

"Marcel made me go to Freya after it happened. She did a reading on me and she found..." Her moment of silence stretched between us, "She felt the baby's energy. So I had to double check and...it's true."

Normally I would be halfway to the compound ready to rip into everyone and anyone who had kept Davina's secret from me but even my normal temper was a dull thud in my skull.

"Say something Kol. Please." She walked towards me, but I stood up abruptly stopping her in her tracks

"What do you want me to say Davina? You want me to say that I'm happy about this? That I'm excited to have this baby in the picture?" Because that would be a bloody lie if I ever told one."  I could see her visibly recoiling at the  viciousness in my voice but I didn't have enough room in my brain to care right now.

"No Kol. I want you to tell me what you think. Tell me that we're going to be able to do this together." She said, reaching for my hand. It was a desperate plea. But I recoiled, snatching myself away from her,

"Do what Davina? Be bloody parents? Because all every great kid needs to succeed is a twice resurrected New Orleans witch as a mother, and a bloodthirsty, psychotic Original vampire as a dad. Not to mention all the murderers this kid will have as a family. Oh and their dearest cousin Hope can teach them all about  magic at the same time she explains her tribid roots ." I slammed my palm against the wall, causing her to jump at the sound.

I knew I was hitting a nerve. As the fire ignited in Davina's eyes,

"Is there really no part of you that wants this Kol?" Her voice was rising and I could feel the magic tension begin to build in the room,

"Is there no part of you that doesn't want this?" I countered matching her stride. "All this baby does is put a target on your back. We both have our number of enemies Davina, and I won't lose you. Not again."

I needed her to understand the terror I felt. The absolute hell I'd been through without her. Nothing was going to jeopardize this new life we had built. I promised myself that the day she came back.

Her eyes softened if only for a moment, "I'm not going anywhere Kol. Not ever." She took timid steps towards me, "When we got together, I accepted the fact that we could never have this. That we could never have a family. I had come to terms with it." She crossed the space between us her hands coming up to hold my face, "But everything's different now. This is what I've always wanted. What I wanted for us. And now we can have it."

I wanted to relish in the same hope she had found in this situation but when I searched within myself, the only feeling I found was dread, and sinking despair rotting at my core.

"We're not exactly picture perfect family material Davina." I bit out harshly, "Best case scenario we have to send the kid to that boarding school in Mystic Falls were they can never be near us, and worst case scenario they grow up here, having to know all the terrible things we did, hear the stories, and witness the blood we have on our hands."

I could feel Davina retreating from me. I had spent my entire life not giving a damn what others thought. No self control. But when I met her, I had put a lid on it, tried to be better. Now I could only revel in the fact that seeing this side of me could be the only way to change her mind.

I gently grabbed her hands, lowering them away from me.

"Is that what your worried about?" She asked softly, "You're scared that one day our child will hate you for the person you were?" I could barely even look at her fallen expression, the sadness held all in her eyes. "Kol," She started, shaking her head, "That's not you anymore. The guy I love isn't a monster. You're kind, loyal even when you shouldn't be, and most of all you've changed. And if I can see that .." She paused, placing a hand gently on her stomach, "Then they'll be able to see it to."

I wanted so badly to believe in her words. That a few good years was enough to make up for a thousand bad ones. But ironically it was her words now that crushed me,

"Kol I've heard the stories. When you were a vampire you were-"

"A psychotic maniac."

No child deserved to have to live under my shadow of evil. My dearest niece Hope may have found a way to bear the weight of Niklaus's crimes, but I would never put a child...my child, through that. I wasn't that cruel.

"I'm sorry Davina." I grimaced, letting go of her hands, "I can't do this."

And without another word, I left.