Stars of Autumn

The 2 Week Gap Filled In

After Leaving Lance's House on Christmas..

James walks to his house in a daze. He isn't sure what he is feeling. Numbness? Sadness? Rejected? Or hateful? He doesn't know... He reaches his house. Arthur and Francois knew something strange was going on with him before he even walked in the door. And they new exactly what it was because it has happened before. James went straight to his room and locked the door. Peter was very confused. He had never seen James like this. Most of the young ones that Christmas night hadn't. But the older ones new all too well what was going on and they knew they couldn't do anything about it. James was always confident and strong. But there were times when he was something completely different. There always was. James fought for the weak. He helped the suicidal. He saved the beauty he saw in darkness. But he was the exact same way in this state. And no one would do that for him. They had no way of doing so. His parents tried. But nothing helped. This lasted for weeks. Rarely months, unless he was with his mother. That took months. It was like he was sitting in a dark room. No windows or doors. Just strong walls that seemed to stretch for miles. Everyone in his clan, whether it be his father's side or the side he made, tried to break the wall. But none of them found the weak spot. James would spend this time silent away from others. And most of all he'd make himself bleed. Sometimes because he wanted to see if he still could. Other times was an attempt to make him disappear from this world. He was always stopped before he could. Visitors came from all over after that Christmas. He didn't even get to enjoy his family or clan. One day when the snow was almost melted Louis came by. James spent their entire visit crying in his arms. Louis always new what to say to James to help him on his process of coming back. The next morning Louis had to leave. He went with hesitation. James was starting to come back. But he wasn't him yet. After Louis left, James walked to the park. He climbed the tree and sat there. After a few minutes he pulled out a knife made of silver and made a small cut. Almost being himself again the burning sensation was too much so he stopped after the blade was in his skin. He pulled it out immediately and put it away. He sat there closing his eyes as he bleed. Till he heard Lances screams...

A/N: Ooh~ There's a little teaser at the end about the next chapter~ Too bad we all have to wait for the next chapter to be finished. So sad! But something a bit more sad is coming! For all of you who are interested in Lance's past I will be uploading that tomorrow after I've finished up editing it a bit like i did this one. Enjoy!