𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬.

[five]

contains : swearing and abuse
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katsuki's pov

just another day with out my cupcake.. it's all sad and lonely here, you didn't have to get yourself taken. why did you have to leave me again? you knew what i would feel if i don't have you in my arms, so why! why did you have to do this to me again?!

i pound on the table while making dinner. there i go again, taking my anger on inanimate objects. screaming in my mind as if it'll help me in anyway, i managed to cut myself on my finger because i was carelessly cutting the vegetables without looking

i felt arms embrace my around my waist, i looked down and saw it was eri. " otousan.. i know it's hard that you miss okaasan.. i do too. i believe that she'll come back to us, she will. right..? ". her voice cracked as she spoke to me, i knelt down to her level and placed a hand under her jaw. seeing her eyes water, broke me down

" she'll come back.. i promise. we'll be a happy family again, just the four of us. okaasan with play dress up and tea party with you again. she'll come back eri " i pulled her into my arms. she broke down even more as her tears stained my shoulder. i rub her back to try to make her feel better, feeling her pain by her tightening hugs. i never what to see her like this again, nor do i want to see izukie like this, good thing she's way too young to understand what's going on

eri broke our hug. she noticed i cut my finger, she grabbed my hand and placed her finger on it. closing the cut. this was like the fifth time this week. i pat her head and carried her to the couch to watch izukie while i resume to making dinner

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bed time.. the hardest thing to do is put izukie to bed

" WAA A A-! " her voice echoed in my head. i hurried in the bathroom so she would have a fit. once i was down brushing my teeth, i tied my hair on the front to get my bangs out of the way. i ran to izukie.

" shh.. i'm here izukie.. dada's here " i picked her up and started to rock her in my arms. my eyes met her bright orange ones. i wiped her tears from her puffy eyes. she continued to cry even though in calming her down, there's only one thing to do

i grabbed my phone and went to my recordings. i rapped on a recording called " izuku's lullaby ". and it started playing

( this is my video with a mlp animation : lullaby for a princess. art by het )

i saw her eyes flutter. she snuggled my arms as she recognized what was going on. i sat on the bed to rest my legs

" i love you.. i miss you.. all these miles away
   may all your dreams be sweet, tonight
   safe upon your bed of moonlight
   and know not of sadness, pain or care
   and when i dream i'll fly away and meet you
   sleep.. sleep.. sleep.. "

izukie has finally fallen asleep. i set her in her crib and tucked her in. i crawl into my empty bed, not having izuku's warmth here next to me is so weird. i've dealt with her warmth for as long as i could remember, we bought this house for our third year of highschool. thankfully that hero course paid our expenses. we would cuddle each other every day, in this exact bed, and having to sleep with her here makes me sad. i'm not exaggerating this, you would feel what it's like when you have your partner am i right?

i stayed up again by having thousands of wandering thoughts in my mind. most of them are questions that needed to be answered by her and her alone.

why did she not tell me?

why does all for one need her again?

why did she let herself get taken away?

why..?

how could this happen when i'm supposed to take care of her?

what do others think of me?

am i terrible husband?

there's just so many..

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izuku's pov

" ha.. haven't you had enough of fun?! " i yelled at dabi. what type of person beats people up as some kind of entertainment? well apparently him. we've been doing this for hours, i haven't had a break to catch my breath. i'm about to fall apart if we continue this so called " game " that guy calls it

i heard him laugh as he turned his back to me , leaving me here to bleed. " do you know why i'm doing all of this crazy shit to you? ". how the heck am i supposed to know if you never told me? i tugged on the rusty chains that are holding me down

" no? " i said.

he quickly turned to me and kicked me in the stomach. i hunched my back as the pain dispersed in my body. i felt his anger in his blue eyes, his staples that connected the purple scars to is skin tone starts ripping

" you sent the love of my life to fucking jail. she'll never get out because of you! that's why i hate you heroes " he picked me up by my hair, tugging and pulling. i felt it rip off of my scalp every timeh he tugs. sending tears to my eyes, screaming as loud as i can

" DABI ENOUGH! " that voice made dabi let me go. tossing me on the floor. my eyes locked on to someone in a black mask, being all panicky. him and dabi started to yell, " you can't keep doing this to her! boss is saving something for her to do later in the day. he'll be mad to see his daughter all fucked up "

" whatever. i was just teaching this slut a lesson. i knew you loved toga too so shut the fuck up " dabi left the room and slammed the door closed. the guy came over to me and helped me up. saying sorry over and over, getting me out of the chains. he thought this was unnecessary, as if i'm some chained dog. surprisingly, twice was very caring, than any other villain

" th- thank you.. " i said to him. sprawling on the bed next to where i was beat up. twice handed me new clothes and wants to wash my bloody one. he said goodbye and left me in the quiet room.

how the heck am i going to get out of here? i checked every wall to see if there was an area i could somehow slip through and escape this building. i looked under the bed and saw there was a mat weirdly placed under the bed. struggling to push the bed off to the side because my strength was beaten out of me, but i managed to push it a few inches away from the mat. i carefully lift the mat up and saw a hidden corridor.

my heart starts to pump faster. adrenaline rushing to all of my limbs making my arms shake as i slowly lift it up. under it was a light and a ladder leading towards the light. i made sure that the door to this room was locked from the inside. it clicked and i jumped down through the corridor closing it behind me. i ran faster than i could, barely using 5%, i passed hallways on hallways

just you wait kacchan! i'm coming home!

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a/n

ok can we just talk about chapter four. i almost cried writing it, i tried to be as detailed as i could in the wedding scene. IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF

AND IM MAD BECAUSE THATS THE ONLY TIME I WRITE GOOD. that takes dedication my dudes. well i gotta go

see you on the next chapter, and have a good day!

anna-san