My Ruined Life

Sept. 25, 2018

I did it. I had sent him another message. "I'm really super bad at meeting new people." It was stupid and simple. I wasn't expecting his reply. I thought "maybe he's just gonna open it and not say anything. Think I'm a weird person badgering him." Instead I got "it's okay. I'm bad at meeting people too." I never smiled so hard. Maybe this was the start of something. A friendship, a relationship, even just a "hey it's been a while how's it going?" Kind of friendship. As long as it was contact, I was fine with it. As long as I got to see this slightly gummy smile once more and hear his laughs and giggles that make my butterflies duplicate and puts the biggest smile on my face but he hates so much.