Dear Someone,
I've only been awake for 2 hours and already need to get away from everyone. Mom is constantly blaming me for us "not being able to have a relationship" or "I'm not easy to talk to." Why is always me? She never stops to think maybe she is wrong too. I may be "difficult" to talk to, but she isn't an angel either.
Whenever she's mad she starts ranting ABOUT me IN FRONT of me. That probably ranks as the most irritating thing ever. She always thinks and acts like she's better than me or deserves everything just because shes a mother and is older. The second I treat her the same way she treats me, she calls me the bitch. But God forbid I ever really tell her how I feel. I am ALWAYS wrong.
She doesn't understand that I may seem bitchy, but maybe it's because I'm hurting. Or because I'm broken. Or because I am trying to please you in some twisted way. Maybe I just never healed and am trying to find some way to deal with all the shit I'm going through. But if I tell her the truth, it will either be all about her or she'll call me a bitch. Either way, I "lose" and she gets exactly what she wants.
Now I have to find some way to get out of this house and away from her for the day because I can't take another second of sitting in this house.
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Dear Someone
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