It's been four months since I last wrote. i lost my motivation to even keep up which always happens. I had this urge to write again so here I am. Gathering thoughts and putting them into words. I don't even know what are the right words to say. Well for starters, I have just gone down hill. I've been depressed lately and have no where else to go. I doubt absolutely everything I do and myself in general. I can't describe this feeling anymore. It used to make me upset, then painful, but now, I don't even cry. I just feel numb. Like "Oh I feel it again." And then I get this upset feeling. I cry, but not a single tear comes down my face. I can't even cry anymore. I feel like my friends aren't even my friends so I just keep distancing myself from them. I feel like I can't trust anyone. I have just started questioning everyone and this feeling just sucks. Nothing describes it better than sucking.
Well on a better note I just finished my Fall Drama this weekend and absolutely loved it. The cast was amazing and we performed a phenomenal show. I couldn't be more proud. I'm so excited for the Spring Musical since this guy I think is cute is auditioning. Maybe this will give me more of an excuse to talk to him. That makes me pretty happy.
I've been video chatting my friends a lot lately. (I am right now). Its fun and all, but after a while, they get annoying or I feel I'm annoying them. I think I may take a break for a while. But I say that every time and never do so no promises actually.
You would think after four months there would be so much to say, but I just can't form things into words and don't want to relive all my past. I might as well just start over.
I am going to go listen to One Directions amazing new album for my 100th time in the past 2 days now. Hahaha. Bye for now :)
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Dear Someone
Non-FictionI've never seemed to grasp the true concept behind keeping a diary or journal. Ever since I was a young girl, I would try to keep one, but for different reasons it never lasted. It would get too boring, or I was lazy, or I just didn't feel it was ne...
