My Personal Dancer

Chapter 32

Jimin POV

I was back in my room thinking about Jungkook.....everything's fine now....why do I feel the need to talk to him? I mean he didn't want to but...I don't feel right leaving things as they are....I want to talk to him about everything so that I don't feel this weight on my chest anymore. I let Yoongi and Tae know that I was leaving but didn't say where as I hurried to his dorm. I stood there for a while gathering my thoughts but then feeling that I should back out was evident....everything's fine now I don't think there's any point to talk to him since it's really my fault that he doesn't want anything to do with me. I sighed and turned to leave but bumped into someone immediately upon turning around.

"Oh... sorry I wasn't looking," I said looking up to see who I bumped into to only feel like I was caught committing a crime.

There stood Jungkook looking down at me with an unreadable expression. I backed up a little bit as my heart picked up its pace from being so close to him.

"S-sorry," was all I could muster out.

"What are you doing here?"

"To be honest I don't know why I'm here....I'll be going," I said walking past him only to be stopped.

"Come on, surely you have a reason to be here...otherwise you're in your room or in the dance studio," he said.

I bit my lip cursing myself for even coming here in the first place but....I don't regret it. I turned around and held my head low feeling guilty for lying to him. All I hear is him sighing and moving to his door to unlock it and walking in.

"Aren't you coming in?"

I turned to look at him then walked inside shutting the door behind me. Man his place was a bit of a mess....he was moving about picking things up and putting them where they should be leaving me there to just watch him.... I don't know what to say or do now that I'm here alone with him even though I rehearsed it in my head several times, it went away the moment he spoke.....God why do I have to be like this. I took my shoes off and went to help him since standing there isn't going to get things done. He helped me put things where they were supposed to be and before we knew it we were done. His place is really nice to look at when it's not coated with depression and fuckboy energy. I sat on his couch carefully hoping I'm not sitting on anything disgusting but was assured by him.

"Don't worry I don't fuck on my couch, that's what the bed is for," he said handing me some tea.

I nodded then remembered the girl he slept with that night I went to talk to him. I sipped it trying to swallow away the feelings behind it but it was thick and there was no way getting rid of that hate boiling within me. I tried to think about something else until it was interrupted by Jungkook.

"I wanna thank you for taking care of me last night....I'm happy that you did everything you could to make sure I was ok."

"I mean it would be bad if I left you there to get horribly sick....I did what's right," I said keeping my gaze at the cup I was holding.

"So you didn't do it for me?"

"No....yes.....I did....but I can't get over some things that you've done," I answered softly almost a whisper.

"You can be honest with me, you know I deserve everything that's coming to me Jimin....."

"But you've already been through a lot.....I don't know how you're doing mentally and I don't want to just spill all my problems and concerns onto you when you're already going through whatever it is from before," I said sitting up.

"Doesn't mean I'll ever be ready for it. Like I said I deserve whatever's coming to me. Sure everything's over with Chen, and me and my brothers are free from anything pertaining to him but there are other things I've done that hasn't come to haunt me if they ever come.....if you came to talk to me say what you need to say....get it out," he said.