NUDES ☞ ethan dolan

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Ethan was out yesterday, but I turned in our project. We got a good grade on it. There was no presenting, so luckily I didn't have to do that alone.

I assumed he'd be in today, and I was kind of excited to see him. It was just two days ago I did, but he was so sweet then. How could I not miss spending time with him, or hearing his laugh?

Eve walked by my side as we went to class, but further down the hall I noticed Ethan.

He had his arm around the shoulder of another girl, talking to his friends. I wasn't going to jump to conclusions, but as we walked closer, he put one hand on the side of her face and pressed their lips together.

Eve noticed too, when I stopped walking in the middle of the hallway. Their kiss probably lasted, five seconds maybe? But watching it felt like a lifetime.

The girl giggled and leaned in to whisper something in his ear, and as she did so, he looked over to me and noticed I was there for the first time. But he looked right through me, as if we were strangers. As if we hadn't been spending time growing closer, getting to know each other.

I placed a hand over my mouth as she leaned into him, and he resumed conversation. He'd glance at me every few seconds, but never looked sorry, smug, anything. He just didn't care. Somehow that was worse.

My legs carried me out of the school, and I could hear the first bell ring as the doors shut behind me. The air was freezing but I was hot.

Eve immediately came running out behind me, holding my hands, trying to talk to me but I couldn't hear her.

Ethan and I weren't official or anything of course. We weren't dating. So was it stupid of me to be so hurt at the sight of him kissing another girl? Should I have expected this?

Tears started pouring out of my eyes before I could even think to try and stop them, and I didn't care. I just sat on the school steps, my head in my knees, and cried. Eve's arms were wrapped gently around me to let me know she was there.

After a few minutes, Mia and Noah came rushing out the front doors and sat right next to us as well. Their lips were moving as they spoke to one another, but I wasn't paying one bit of attention.

Since he came into my life he'd absolutely turned it upside down. He ripped me out of the ground where I was planted and flourishing and moved me to a completely different place, one I wasn't familiar with, one that I was having trouble adjusting to. I was starting to wilt.

Honestly, I thought Ethan and I were getting somewhere. Which sounds ridiculous considering how many times I've said that now, expecting different results.

"I'm such an idiot," I cried, wiping tears off my face.

"No, you're not. Heaven, you cared about him. Sure he didn't deserve that from you, but you're not an idiot for that." Noah sighed.

"So can I kill him this time?"

I shook my head at Mia as I sniffled. She couldn't kill him, at least not until I stopped caring about him.

In hindsight, this should've been expected. He's done things like this since the moment I added him back on Snapchat- since the moment I let him into my life, really. And despite everything I still found it in myself to forgive him, to get to know him and care about him. Ethan fooled me, and he did a great job.

"C'mon. Let's skip first period- you could use some donuts." Mia smiled sadly at me.

We went to Dunkin, getting coffees and donuts and sat inside surrounded by the old people. Those were the only ones who weren't at school or work. My friends spent the whole time trying to cheer me up, and I loved them dearly for it.