Forbidden love

Chapter 17

Smiling softly and putting her hand on his neck and playing with his hair with her fingers "I couldn't possibly forget that", looking into his bright blue eyes she tilted her head "you've changed so much since I first met you, there's just something about you now".

Pulling her down so she's sitting on his lap and stared in her eye letting her know what he had to say was the truth and his face was more serious and he took a deep breath, " when Bellamy and the rest left me on the cliff" he paused and look away and bite his lip to keep him self from break but he couldn't and he lightly got Octavia off his lap and stood up and headed towards the door.

He turned around with tears in his but he blinked to try and hide it "I'm so scared that It will happen again but this time I won't get away, that I won't ever see you again", he put his hands on the back of his head and turned his back to her but by now he was shaking!

Realizing that getting stabbed again brought back everything that happened to him by the grounders, she walked up behind and turned him around and reached up and grabbed his hands and held them in hers "Murphy look at me, I will never let that happen to you again, you self here" still feeling him shake she frowned and looked at her feet until she felt him pull away.

She looks up to see him walking towards the bed and grabbed the pole "I wouldn't let you get hurt for me" his voice cracked and get grabbed his coat "and that's why doing this, I have to leave." He said turning around this time with tears running down his face and headed for the door.

Feeling her heart break into pieces and she spun around to look at him "please don't leave Murphy please, please", he turns around to look back at her.

"You say you don't want me to get hurt" she said though her tears and gripping the ends of her sleeves of her coat till her fingers were sore,
"Then why are you the one hurting me? Why are you lea.." She choked on her words and covered her face and shook her head "please don't".

He dropped his coat on the floor and walked up and back her up to the walk "Octavia, please understand I'm doing this to protect you, if the grounders find..."she threw her hands up to stop him from talking.

"Screw the grounders I don't care about them, I care about you and I always will" she said as she part her hands on his chest and he tensed.

Holding him self inches away from her with his hands on the wall on either side of her head " if anything happened to you it would kill me, I wouldn't be able live knowing I got you hurt", she grabbed his wrists her eyes still watery "the only thing that is killing me right now is that your trying to leave" pulling him closer and wrapped her arms around him "please Murphy I need you".

Feeling her heart beat against his chest again he remembered how much he loved having her in his arms and just having her near him all together made him feel safe, taking one arm off the wall and wrapping it around her waist pull her closer against him and pushed him self off the wall with his other hand and wrapping it around her and lifting her up and she wrapped her legs around him and looked at his face "your really good at getting what you want you know that right?", her eyes widened and with out even realizing what she was doing she kissed and he stranded stepping backwards to the bed and fell on it, she pulled away and sat up "I'm glad I changed your mind Murphy" she paused "I would of followed you anyways" she said smiling and putting her hands on the bed leaning over him" like it or not I'm not easy to get ride of" and smirked before he smiled "I like it". He said