Kurt. That was all Blaine could think about, he could only think about the way be hurt his one true love. Again. Blaine was listening to the radio when a particular song that caught his attention.
I smell heartbreak on my hands,
Both Blaine and Kurt were definitely heartbroken.
I feel sick to my stomach as I begin to stand,
Blaine had 100% felt sick after he did what he did.
I see your outline in my bed,
Blaine's mind often played tricks on him, sometimes making him think that Kurt was with him.
In the same spot I watched him rest his head,
Kurt often stayed the night at Blaine's house.
I've done you wrong, I regret it,
Blaine instantly regretted what he had done even before it was over.
I write this song, try to forget it,
Blaine had definitely wrote song lyrics down hoping he would forget some parts of what happened.
I feel this emptiness in my chest,
Blaine's heart was empty without Kurt's love for him.
It feels surreal, but I'm feeling stressed,
Blaine hadn't been able to sleep properly since he cheated on Kurt.
I need to do something,
Blaine had to do something to fix what he had done but he was almost 100% sure that Kurt wouldn't forgive him this time.
I f***ed up for nothing,
Blaine didn't know why he cheated on Kurt.
Now I gotta just tell someone,
Blaine wasn't sure he could tell anyone.
Tell someone what I've done,
Blaine had to tell someone he cheated but he had no idea of who.
Please bathe me now, wash me clean,
All Blaine wanted was to get this horrid feeling off of him.
Just set my heart on fire, like gasoline,
Blaine wanted nothing more than to die, Kurt was the reason he lived and now that he too had slipped through his fingers Blaine didn't know what to do.
Bathe me now, wash me clean
Just set my heart on fire, like gasoline
Oh, no, like gasoline
I wake up the morning after,
Blaine would wake up with nightmares about what he did.
You call but I don’t answer,
For Blaine this was the other way around, he would call and call and call Kurt but Kurt never picked up once.
And I can’t look you in the eye,
Blaine couldn't look at Kurt the entire time he was telling his fiance what he had done.
No matter how hard I try,
You deserve forever,
Blaine knew Kurt didn't deserve him after what Blaine had done to such a perfect person, a second time.
not a boy looking for better,
Blaine never considered himself a man after what he had done, twice now.
But as long as you’re still here,
Imma try to keep you near
Please bathe me now, wash me clean
Just set my heart on fire, like gasoline
Bathe me now, yeah, wash me clean
Just set my heart on fire, like gasoline
Please bathe me now, wash me clean
Just set my heart on fire, like gasoline
Bathe me now, yeah, wash me clean
Just set my heart on fire, like gasoline
Bathe me now, wash me clean
Just set my heart on fire, just like gasoline.
What had Blaine done? Why did he do it? Blaine didn't have those answers himself instead he had somehow made his way to the bathroom and had a razor blade in his hand...
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A/N Song is Gasoline by Troye Sivan from his ep TRXYE.
