Words On Paper (Poem Book)

Joke

These voices in my head, they won't shut up
They knock me down anytime I get up
Not literal voices, nah I ain't crazy
Voices from the past that haunt me daily

I got real good at ignoring them
Cause the Lord, I put my faith and trust in him
But now that I'm down I got hit in the face with them
I feel like I'm losing this race with them

Every step I take, they knock me back three times
Ain't they got something better to do with their free time?
I just need some me time
Give my light a chance to reshine
I wish I could just freeze time
Take a breath and rewind

Figure out where I went wrong
Cause my strength to keep fighting is nearly gone
How my hits can I take till I hit the floor?
Wanna leave? Well there's the door

You won't be the first
And I can promise you won't be the last
At least that's what I can tell you from looking at my past

See its real easy to get addicted to loneliness
Cause when I'm alone I can't be hurt by this
But I'm probably the one to blame for this
Cause I knew to start with this wouldn't be painless

So watch me push you away from this
So I'm the only one dealing with the pain from this
I promise you're not to blame for this

Maybe if I can get real good at ignoring this
Then maybe I can let the Lord take this
But watch as on these words I choke
Cause ever letting is a joke