Best Friends? Laurence X Reader [COMPLETED]

I Hate You

DONT PLAY SONG YET!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Things to know:
Y/N-Your Name
H/L-Hair Length
H/C-Hair Color (can be any color)
E/C-Eye Color
C/O/E-Color Of Ears
C/O/T-Color Of Tail (these two are the same)
F/C-Favorite Color
S/F/C-Second Favorite Color
F/F-Favorite Food
N/ N-Nick Name
Y/B/N- Your Boy Name
Underline is your shadowknight self
Italics are Flashback and dreams
Bold are thoughts
~Means singing~
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-Y/N's POV-
-warning ⚠️ contains cutting and attempt of suicide!-
I walk to school and just keep my head down I don't know what awaits me. All I think about is the looks on everyone's faces a few days ago, especially...
Laurence's. He was my best friend since we were little. I've had a huge crush on him for a long time. But that's seeming to fade away.
I just need to make things right, I look up from my train of thought and see the school in front of me.
I walk in and people start staring at me while talking to each other.
I sigh knowing what they're talking about. I reach my locker and open it and put my bag away since I don't need any books because it's the last week of school and the teacher doesn't teach us anything they just let us talk and go on our phones why they just sleep.
I close my locker and go try finding Laurence. It would be easy to find him because he would be running away from fangirls crying there ass off because they won't see him again.
I see a huge pile of girls chasing after a familiar brunette and he goes behind a locker and the girls loose him. I take this as my chance. He sighs and I sneak up behind him.
"Hey..." I said and he turns around and his eyes turn full of hatred and disgust.

"Laur-

"No don't talk to me I don't want to hear it"

"But I'm sor-

"Save it Y/N I hate you never talk to me again I'm glad I won't see you when we graduate."

That was the last thing he said before he walked away.

This is what I get my stupid curse did this to me.

Hey don't bring me in this. I did nothing.
-Play Song-
Yes you did! You took control said those things and hit him you hurt Ivy people look at me like I'm insane. Like I'm some killer!
He was your best friend he should understand and listen to you if he actually cared about you! I did you a solid showing you how much of a bitch he could be ok! The laurance I KNEW NEVER DID THIS TO ANYONE THAT HE CARED FOR!
Your right...
W-what?
Your right he doesn't care about me...
No one does.
What do you mean?
Listen to all these people talk! Good news! Being a werewolf means that you can listen to people talking about you!
"Look at her she's insane."
"I'm sure she was only popular because she was hot."
"I heard she used to be a stupid Omega."
"She's useless."
"Pathetic."
"I hope she dies."
"I agree."
"She should go die in a ditch."
"How is she even a beta."
"Her 'friends' probably are her friends because they just pity her."
"Tsk. Ugly. I can't believe she almost killed ivy."
... Y/N are you ok?
No. I'll just give the people what they want. What do you mean?
I ran out of the school and just ran. I ran to my house I slammed open the door. I knew no one was home. I look at the time. I have a lot time until my brother comes home.
Pathetic.
Useless.
I hope she dies.
Their words jut rang through my head.
I ran to the bathroom and looked through the cabinets. I found razor blades. I know why they were there. They where mine.
I hate you.
I hope she go dies in a ditch.
I lift my school sleeve. I take a blade. I look at the cuts I already had on my from the past. All those moments. From dad leaving to this...
I shakily take a sigh and I look at the mirror and didn't know that I was even crying.
I start running the sinks water and put my wrist over the sink.
Good bye. I'll see you in the after world other me. I'll see Irene soon. Or Shad soon.
Y/N DONT-
SKIP THIS PART IF YOU DONT LIKE SUICIDE OR SAD THINGS!
I slice my wrist and scream at the pain.
"THIS ONES FOR EVERYONE THEY WANT ME TO DIE."
I slice again.
"THIS ONES FOR  MY FAMILY THEY NEVER LOVED ME!"
I slice again for the third time on the other wrist.
Y/N STOP!
"EVERYONE WANTS ME TO DIE! IM GIVING THEM WHAT THEY WANT!"
I slice and scream in pain.
"THIS ONES FOR LAURANCE! SOMEONE I FELL INLOVE WITH BUT LEFT ME TO ROT! I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND! YOU LEFT ME TO ROT AND DIE! EVERYONE DID!"
STOP! PLEASE!
"WHY SHOULD I!? ITS NOT LIKE PEOPLE WILL CARE ABOUT ME?! I'M JUST GIVING EVERYONE WHAT THEY WANT! MY MOM, MY SUPPOSED FRIENDS, THE WHOLE FUCKING SCHOOL AND THE WORLD!"
I slice more and more and cry in agony. It felt like knifes hitting my heart and killing me slowly. Which was true.
I finished and I look at my arms and wrist and they were bleeding. I look on the floor and there was blood everywhere. I feel dizzy and stumble back to the wall and hit it. I try keeping my eyes open.
The door suddenly opened. I heard a scream.
"R-Ryan?" Was all that I can choke out.
He grabs me and hugs me.
He pulls out his phone crying and dials 911.
"Hello! MY SISTER IS ON THE FLOOR IN THE BATHROOM ABOUT TO PASS OUT! SHE SLIT HER WRISTS AND THERE CUTS AND BLOOD EVERYWHERE ON HER! PLEASE SEND HELP! THE ADRESS IS 1529 LANKERSHIN BLVD!" He screamed and hung up. He looks at me.
I close my eyes ands can't open them again.
"STAY WITH ME Y/N I CANT LOOSE YOU!"
"I...Love y-you...R-Ryan." I said to him and his crying just went louder. I heard two more screams.
"Y/N!"
Was the last thing I heard from anyone until I saw blackness and heard silence. I was numb.
I failed. I failed trying to protect you...

I'm sorry Irene I have failed you and this poor girl...

I'm sorry for everything I ever did.

I have failed you. I'm sorry.

FORGIVE ME!