Poetry: The Truth Of My Heart And My Mind

Sleepless Nights

so this poem is a tribute to my grandma who saddly passed away nearly 3 weeks ago and umm I loved her so much, talked to her on skype every sunday, sometimes on Saturday or during the week, she was an amazing woman, she was very inspiring, funny, had a great sense of humour, she took care of me always and my brother and my cousins, she taught me a lot, she gave me a lot of advice and she helped me through many things, she saved me from going the wrong way, she and grandpa took me on many trips when I was younger. May her beautiful soul rest in heaven, and may her soul make the angels happy. My grandma had a very tough life but when she found my grandad she knew he was the one and she had a long and happy life with him. I wouldn't be here without her. Thanks to her I'm here, she gave birth to my mum, and my mum gave birth to me. :) I'm grateful for that!

R.I.P Grandma 19th December 1945- 18th July 2014.

It's been almost 3 weeks since I lost you,

I have had many almost sleepless but restless nights with you in my mind,

I still cannot believe you're gone, I feel like dreaming,

I can only imagine a nightmare of you lifeless,

with you it was all happiness, laughter and just life,

with you gone I feel dispair beneath it all,

finding out that you're gone left me speechless,

but now at least you're peaceful and watching over me with grandpa,

I don't know anymore,

all I feel is fear,

with you cup was full,

now it's all a tear, a bond that's broken, a hole,

I'am not focused,

everything's a notion, every memory goes in a click of a finger,

and it makes me feel like choking,

nothing's easy or numbing, the pain is never gone.

I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU AND LOVE YOU