Roses And Torns

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LISTEN TO THE SONG ABOVE WHILE READING^^^^

clara mcneill

It's been 2 weeks since I have gone into work, I cant face it.

I cant face him.

Johnathon has rang me none stop all week. I wish I had someone to confine in but I've never been the social type, Im an only child also and my relationship with my Father has been strained since my Mother walked out on us. The only friend well aquantaince I have is Mr J and I dont even know if you could call that a friendship. i must sound absloutely bonkers right now, my only friend is a sociopath who kills for the fun of it. I really have lost the plot.

He's constantly on my mind and I hate it. I hate the feeling of it and how its taken over me, my life ,my job and my mind.

your in love with him, the voice which ive been dreading the return of whispers.

shut up you dont know anything, I could never love such a criminal, such a monster...such a mess.

Clara wake up and smell the roses. your in love with that mad man, you just wont admit it to yourself

He's my patient and Im his psychiatrist, Im not about to be the next harley quinn.. his next plaything,  I refuse.

oh honey that blonde bimbo was only his way out of that place, tell me has he once mentioned escaping arkham since returning?

well no he hasnt, but he proabaly never did to harleen either so I dont know what your getting at.

well there you go, he likes being around you. if he didnt he would have tried it on by now. you have been his psychiatrist for the past 5 years and he hasnt once tried to seduce you

Your still not making any sense, theres no feelings involved with Me and Mr J, its strictly professional and thats the way its going to stay, okay.

you call yourself a psychiatrist yet you cant even work it out in that intelligent brain of yours that your in love

3RD PERSON

The voice didnt speak for the rest of the day, leaving Clara swimming in her thoughts and she was drowning. every once in a while she would stare at her mughshot of Mr J and cry, wondering how her life got so messed up. Only a few years ago she was the happiest girl going, just fresh out of college with a well earned degree in psychology hopeful for the future and what it has to bring. her parents still had a happy and healthy marriage. yet flash foward 5 years and shes sat alone in her apartment crying her eyes out over a sociopath. no Mother and barely on speaking terms with her Father.

Clara mcneill

My life really is a mess.

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wow that took me ages to write. Im so sorry i haven't updated in months I just had major writers block but Im back and I promise from now on I'll be dedicated to writing once again.

As always thank you so much for reading, every view counts.

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