Her secret and its pain

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Once in your life have you ever felt a very strong connection?
Iyong tipong naging close kayo nang hindi mo alam kung pano, yung kapag tinitingnan mo siya hindi mo alam pero parang sobrang pamilyar niya na.

A strong connection that leads you to admiration,
you'll start seeing amazing and wonderful things na ginagawa niya. Kahit walang kwenta nagiging sensical because that person exerted effort for it.

Until such time hindi mo na napapansin, attached ka na.

Hindi mo napapansin napapamahal ka na.

A time wherein you feel you can't let go.. No, YOU WON'T LET GO

But with every connection, there's always a barrier...

That's what i felt for my childhood best friend.

Warren Diem G. Tuazon

Like i said there's always a barrier and that's..

He is inlove with someone else.

And that someone else?

Loves him too.

The day i learned the hard truth, was the day i decided to stop everything i have for him.

That it was a sin.
A pain for me to bare, a pain for me to always carry

But one day, an offer came that changed their opinions about each other..

An offer that would wake my sleeping and sad heart to beat and encourage him again..

To lift this baggage and to endure and try to be with him again..

For the last time..
For the last time i'll try to keep this pain a secret.

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TUBIG!

Iyan ang isinisigaw ng utak ko habang hinahabol ko ang hininga ko at tinatanaw si Warren na patuloy pa rin sa pagtakbo.

Pambihira! Hindi ba siya napapagod?!

Huminto muna ako at pinunasan ang pawis na tumutulo sa aking mukha, napayuko ako at alam kong maasim nako sa sitwasyon na'to.

Napailing nalang ako sa mga desisyon kong samahan siya sa pag jogging.

Nag breathe in breathe out muna ako dahil sobrang HINDI KO NA KAYA.
Nanginginig na yung legs ko oh.

Pag ka angat ko ng aking ulo ay nakita kong tumatakbo si Warren pabalik sa akin. Tumayo ako ng tuwid at huminga ng malalim

Grabe sakit na ng araw sa mata.

"Pagod ka na?" pawisan at medyo natatawa na tanong sakin nang PAMBIHIRANG lalaking nasa harap ko.

Inirapan ko siya
"Ay! Aware ka pala?" na nagpatawa sa kanya dahilan kung bakit nairita na ako sakanya.

"Tara na nga, di mo na kaya eh." Tumalikod siya sa akin at inabot ang towel niyang nakasabit sa leeg sabay punas sa kanyang mukha at leeg.

Halos manginig lalo ang legs ko habang pinapanuod ko siyang magpunas ng pawis niya.

He's wearing a navy blue sando na fitted, a black jogging pants and his Nikes.

Sa malapitan makikita mong sobrang pawis niya na, sweat trickling down to his back tracing his toned hard muscles.

Pero yung amoy niya, FRESH. I'm envious.. Sinigang na ata ang pwedeng iluto sa akin.

Ayus lang, atleast i know i look good naman kahit paano.. Wearing my black sweatshirt, side striped pink & white sport shorts and my nikes. But my gosh i smell sweaty!