Her secret and its pain

Hurt

Time heals everything.

I remember this line being answered to every bitter, broken hearted and hard-to-let-go person.

TIME HEALS EVERYTHING. They said..

That you should wait, and one morning you'll wake up realizing hindi mo na mahal 'yong tao.

Siguro dahil sa mga minuto, oras, araw, linggo, buwan o taon na lumipas?

I'm not sure.

Because i'm not a believer of that line.

You and ONLY YOU could decide, when to start or fully heal yourself..

Time spent thinking of the past or someone who caused you those wounds are time WASTED.

Falling inlove with Warren in the first place, felt right but.. not right after knowing his heart is already taken.

And i'm not that naive to cling on him beg him for his love... I cherish him, i respect his decisions.

If i could do everything to get him, i could do everything to forget him..

But where am i now?
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October how oddly i get excited for this month.

Ber months na kase, no offense sa September but mostly malamig pag October na.

Kagagaling ko lang ng trabaho, I work in a restaurant inside a 5 star hotel as a food server.

Magda-dalawang taon na rin ako sa hotel na yon. My OJT was in the same hotel but i was part of the front office, unlike now, sa F&B under their main restaurant.

Nakahiga ako ngayon kakabihis lang, sinusubukang isipin kung nakapag bayad na ba ako ng internet na iniutos sakin ni mama kanina..

I was raised alone by my mom since 8 years old. Life was very tough but i learned how to keep up at a very young age.

Nagscholar ako, kahit na medyo nahihirapan pakong matuto dahil bata ay medyo puro laro pa ang alam ko.

I was very disciplined and obedient to my mom. Pasaway pero hindi naman pariwara.

Nabigla ako nang mag vibrate ang cellphone ko.

"Wars 😎 calling..."

"Hello?" i answered in a bored tone.

Pagod ako, at kasama ko din siya sa trabaho kaya nakaka asar at nakakapagtaka na tumatawag siya.

Ano na naman ang kailangan mo?

"Tara na, nasa kanto niyo ako" masigla pero mahinahon niyang sabi.
I wonder how he does two things in one amount of action, with no effort.

Napabalikwas ako nang maabsorb ko ang sinabi niya sa akin, hinila palayo ang curtina sa bintana para makita kung totoo ba ang sinasabi niya.

Minsan kase ay tumawag siyang nasa kanto pero ANG LOKO WALA NAMAN.

But i saw the blinking hazard light of his car near our house, sign na totoo nga andito nga siya.

Di kase kasya ang sasakyan niya kung papasok siya sa kanto namin madalas doon siya nagsstay or magppark.

"Wala na bang pahinga para sayo?" i sighed, iniisip kong tatayo ako.. Mag bbra, baba ng hagdan lalakarin hanggang kanto.

Ang bigat ng katawan ko.

"Pahinga pahinga ka jan?! di mo kailangan nun, Tara na" sermon niya sakin.