Hearts Align

Chapter 4

"No, you can't do that. There's no way you can leave, they'll have to warm up to you sooner or later."

"No they don't and they won't. I don't understand why they think that I want to replace Maggie and now they're gonna think that I want to replace Jackson's wife but that's the farthest thing from the truth."

"Screw them . . ."

"Don't let anyone hear you saying that Jo, they're gonna start alienating you too just because you're friends with me."

"This is stupid, it's very stupid. They're behaving like children and it's not fair to you or the patients that you could be treating." she argued.

"It is what it is, I've gotta go. See you."

"Bye."

Walking out to the parking area I stood next to my car, which arrived two days ago and let my head rest on the roof. The tears that I tried so hard to keep in just started falling and there was nothing I could do to stop them. It was a good thing that I was alone in the parking lot, the last thing I need is for one of them to see me crying.

"Velez?"

"This is just fucking perfect." I mumbled.

"Velez, are you okay?"

"Why would you care Dr. Karev? Don't worry, I'm not gonna break down in front of you. Even though you and your friends might like that. I am going to leave now." I said, wiping my eyes.

"Wait, damn it!"

"What do you want? To tell me how much of a piece of work I am like Maggie did? Or are you here to tell me that I'm no replacement for his wife? I know this, I don't want to be a replacement for anyone which is something that none of you understand." I argued.

"That's not what I came to say." he replied.

"Then what is it, Dr. Karev because I would really like to go shower and sleep."

"I just wanted to tell you that I was impressed with how you handled the situation with Sonja. You did good." he said.

"What is this? Did they send you to play with my head now? Your best friend ask you to find out about something?" I asked, confused and tired.

"No, no one sent me or asked me for anything. I mean it Kiara and I'm sorry for how they're treating you." he said softly.

"Why are you here Karev? I am nowhere near in the mood for any more mind games, I'm tired of the games."

"Call me Alex."

"Alex, what is this?" I asked again.

"This is me trying to be nice."

"Why? Why now, after two weeks of silent treatment and group glaring?"

"I realized that there was no real reason for everyone to be on your case. You haven't done anything to . . ."

"Alex! Come on!" Meredith shouted from a few cars down.

"Go, Alex, you don't want her to get mad at you." I said, watching her glare at me.

"I'll see you tomorrow." he said.

"No you won't, good night Alex."

I could hear her arguing with him as I got into my car and let a few more tears fall. As much as I want to hold out, I don't know how much more of this I can handle. Its been two weeks of hell and I don't know if its worth it anymore. That Mercy West offer seems more enticing every day.

When I woke up I remembered the conversation from yesterday with Jackson and realized that they're gonna meet today. I told my mom about it last night and she said that it was about time, she's more than okay with it but she's not going to be there with me when it happens. I don't know how this is gonna go down but I know that its gonna happen so I just gotta accept.