Liam’s POV
“Ten minutes before the interview!” I heard our manager say. I looked at the mirror in front of me. I look like a mess. It’s been two weeks since Niall died, and I’ve cried everyday ever since. Why did Niall have to die? And how did that happen? Those two questions have been haunting me this whole time. He was the one I loved the most, the one who always made me happy, the one I cared deeply for, and now he’s gone. I can’t believe it.
Truth be told, I’m lost without Niall. I only think about him, I can’t concentrate on anything else. I seriously don’t know how this interview will go, but I know I’ll make a fool out of myself. I don’t know how I will handle not seeing Niall’s beautiful face, not hearing he’s beautiful and contagious laugh when we act silly, not seeing him smile at me when I speak. I’m not ready to do this interview without Niall. I’m not ready and I don’t want to be.
I look at the necklace Niall gave me for several minutes before deciding to put it on myself. I look at myself in the mirror again. I still look like a mess, but this time it’s not as bad as last time because of the beautiful necklace I’m wearing on my neck.
Just as I’m about to leave my dressing room, someone opens the door. It’s our stylist, Lou.
“You’re not seriously going to the interview looking like that, right?” She commented.
“Actually I am.” I replied.
“But you like a mess!”
“Why, thank you!” I sarcastically remarked as she rolled her eyes. “No, but seriously, I am going like this. It will show the people how miserable and broken I am over his death.” I said as tears were rolling down my cheeks. Lou quickly hugged me to comfort me.
“Aww, ok. Come on now, we need to go.” Lou said softly before taking my arm and leading me out of my dressing room.
Lou took me to where the rest of the boys were standing. They all had bloodshot eyes like me from crying too much. We hugged each other in a group hug before pulling away from the comforting embrace.
“We can do this.” Harry said as we all nodded. All of us tried our best to smile for the sake of the interview.
“Ladies and gentleman, let’s welcome the boys of One Direction!” The interviewer exclaimed. We walked in to the stage and the audience clapped and screamed louder than before. We took a seat on the chairs that were set for us. I noticed that there were four seats for us now instead of five. It took all the strength I had in me not to cry.
“Hello!” Louis said while smiling to the audience. We joined Louis by smiling too. It took all our strength to smile like that and not break down. This was really hard for us.
“Hi! So how are you boys?” The interviewer asked us smiling.
“Good.” Zayn lied. The other boys nodded and pretended to be fine too.
“Bad.” I replied honestly. I looked to the empty spot on my right, suddenly seeing Niall sitting there and agreeing with me. My eyes widened in surprise and I blinked a few times to see Niall disappearing. This has happened to me the whole time, because I’ve been thinking about Niall way too much. I should really see someone who can help me with this soon.
“So, boys, now that One Direction officially broke up, what are your plans for the future?” The lady who was interviewing us questioned, completely ignoring my answer. She will probably ask us about Niall’s death later.
“Well, I guess we all are going to continue our music careers and go as a soloist. Or maybe try continuing as an actor. I don’t know, but what we know is that we’ll always be brothers and we’ll always keep in touch.” Harry replied for all of us. Louis and Zayn agreed with him while I just sat there in silence.
“Yeah, I’ll probably take an English major.” Zayn added.
The interviewer kept on asking questions about the future and about One Direction. The other boys kept answering the questions and laughed as they remembered some good One Direction memories. At first I was sitting there listening to the interview, but hearing about all those good memories we had together hurts. One Direction and these boys were the best things that happened to me. Knowing that our time together as a band ended, brings pain to my heart. I know we will keep being friends, but it’s not the same. I eventually zoned out of the conversation and thought about Niall, again.
A tap on my shoulder interrupted me from my thoughts. I looked over to see Louis’s hand on my shoulder while everyone looked at me.
“Huh? I’m so sorry, I just can’t seem to focus since… you know…” I mumbled.
“It’s ok. We were just talking about it. The boys expressed how sad they’re feeling about it. How are you dealing with Niall’s death?” The interview asked me with the most casual tone ever. How can she be so casual about it?
I looked away, trying not to cry, but I just couldn’t hold it in anymore. Tears streamed down my face as I looked back at the interviewer. I opened my mouth to say how Niall was such an amazing person, but no words came out. I felt someone holding my hand. I looked at my hand and Niall came in front of me. I blinked a few times, but he didn’t disappear this time.
“Niall?” I whispered.
“Hi Liam. I miss you.” I heard him say. He smiled at me before wrapping his arms around me. I could actually feel his hug. I’m seriously going crazy. Before I could overthink about my actions, I hugged him back.
Niall then leaned in closer to me and whispered a few sweet few things in my ear. I smiled at him and imitated his actions so I could see him smile again.
“I love you Liam.” He said before he crashed his lips to mine.
“I love you too Niall.” I replied and kissed him back.
“Uh Liam?” Zayn brought my attention back to reality and I saw everyone stare at me like I was crazy.
I forgot that only I could see Niall. I just humiliated myself on TV while sharing these amazing moments with Niall’s ghost. I’m screwed. I don’t even want to see the headlines tomorrow. I looked over at the empty spot next to me and Niall was still there, smiling at me and reaching to hold my hand.
At least I have Niall here with me. That’s the only thing I want and need, and as long as I have that, I don’t care about what anybody says.
A/N: Hey guys, this chapter was co-written by a fellow writer AnayaMG ya'll should go follow her and send her some love! :D Hopefully the next chapter will be up soon :D
