[ :: Poem Collection :: ]

The Most Selfish Person I know

No one could be as selfish as me;

Especially when you look at her with

loving eyes

and thoughts filled with only her.

& I hate the fact that I know

& I hate the fact that you don’t know that

I want you with me. 

But what I hate most is encouraging you-- telling you

to go get her.

To dance with her,

to talk to her,

to love her more than you do now. 

My selfishness only grows more

along with your adoration for her. 

I admit that

I do enjoy the attention

despite not showing emotions. 

It shows you do notice me

that you acknowledge me for once. 

I only wish that I’d have your attention for

at least once everyday

if it isn’t too much to give..?

But I think I’m the most selfish when

I believe that this rope

will give me some relief

from this hell we call life. 

Or this razor

to slit across my neck

to ease the pain

by the words

blocking my throat(perhaps drowning would be a better solution).

‘Cause keeping silence has become too much 

& I just want die.

Then will you love me 

& give me some of your time,

If you knew how I felt, deep down inside?