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Compared to Her, I'm Nothing.

I roll my eyes when you mention

another girl's name through your lips, 

making me wish I actually didn't care if she was cute or not ('cause you also said I was cute, & now it feels like an empty word without meaning). 

I sigh when you mention

how amazing her body looks

& think to myself, "I need to get rid of this fat so I think I'll stop eating for awhile & hopefully

I'll be just as skinny as she is" ('cause apparently that kind of body attracts you, right?)

I close my eyes when you mention

how beautiful she is 

& I wish you never said she was inside & out (I already know I lost by looks & personality, 'cause you never mention how beautiful I am). 

But I cry everytime you mention

another girl's name through your lips

because I know she is better than I could ever be

& compared to her, 

I wasn't anything you really wanted. 

So each time, 

I die a little inside,

knowing you could never love me,

& knowing I could never truly have you (I think I might just be a masochist afterall).