Bad Company

Chapter 19: Blue Monday

Billy's body became tense at my words. I felt awkward and embarrassed, wondering if I had just made the wrong decision by telling him my true feelings about him. Billy exhaled a long sigh as he walked over to me, making me extremely nervous. Billy stood in between my legs that were still dangling off of the desk. He placed his hands on the side of my face, cupping my face as he lifted my head up to look at him. His thumbs wiped away a few random tears that were still on my cheek. I closed my eyes as Billy rested his forehead against mine.

"You're too good for me." He said softly. "I don't know why ya waste your time with someone like me."

I bit the inside of my cheek nervously as I wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my head against his chest, "Because... I love you."

"I don't care if you don't love me... but I can't keep it inside any longer... I love you." I added in a whisper.

"Ya mean that?" Billy asked firmly as he exhaled a breathe through his nose.

"Clearly." I replied wide eyed. "Obviously you don't... but... it's how I feel and believe it or not, I do." I added as I looked away.

"Hey..." Billy started, making me look up at him. "I do love you."

"You mean that?" I asked curiously.

"I wouldn't fuckin' say it if I didn't." Billy replied sternly making me roll my eyes. "I just don't.." Billy paused, clicking his jaw to the side and placing a hand on the back of his neck.

"What?" I asked softly.

"I don't want anything happening to ya." Billy replied, staring back into my eyes.

A sly smirk formed from the corners of my mouth, "Nothing's going to happen to me." I retorted. "After all, you protect what's yours right?"

Billy grinned and shook his head slightly before crashing his lips against my own. We aren't exactly a good pair in the eyes of other people but in our own eyes, we're the perfect couple. Regardless of everything Billy has done or who he is and what he does, I am head over heels, madly in love with him. I feel an odd sense of security whenever Billy is around. I haven't felt this safe in a long time and even that is saying a lot considering the life style Billy lives.

I pulled away from Billy, my arms still wrapped around his neck as I stared into his piercing blue eyes and smiled a goofy smile, "How long is this going to take? I'm starving."

Billy smirked and glanced around, "Heco can take care of this shit." Billy responded before intertwining our fingers together and leading me back towards his car, hand in hand.

This isn't going to be no happy go lucky, "Twilight" / "Notebook" type of relationship... and I'm okay with that, as long as I'm Billy Darley's girl.

Once we were inside of the car and as Billy was starting the car, I leaned over and placed a few kisses along his jaw line. I pulled my head back slightly, biting my bottom lip as I watched Billy place a cigarette between his lips and hold up a flip lighter to the end of the cigarette. Watching the flame light the end of the cigarette and how Billy's cheeks sucked in as he inhaled a drag off of the cigarette was somehow mesmerizing to me. Billy didn't seem to care that I was so close to him while he was driving. All he did was roll down his window and rest his elbow on the car door as he drove. He glanced at me as I leaned forward even closer to him, resting my left arm on the headrest of his seat and my right hand flat down on the seat in between his legs.

A sly smirk formed on the corners of my mouth as I ran my tongue up his neck up to his ear lobe where I gently nibbled on his ear. Billy pulled the cigarette out from in between his lips and exhaled smoke out through his nose as he turned his attention from the road over to me, "You're gonna be the death of me."