Rain's POV
I woke up and stared at the ceiling,I needed to talk to someone,I needed my mum,I dialled my mum's number and on the third ring she picked.
Mum I said berely audible.
Hey baby,are you okay?
That's when I broke down crying,I cried for what felt like hours and my mum just stayed on the line listening,after what felt like hours I stopped.
Do you feel better baby?
Yes mum a little.
Now tell your mummy what's wrong
Mum I like jace,I like him alot and then a lot has happened but I finally admit,I like him.
Oh baby that's good but your sad because why?
Well, I narrated the story for her and everything then after that I started crying again.
The sex was amazing mum,it was amazing,I loved it.
Oh baby,my poor thing,just calm down and tell me all your thoughts.
Well for one is that he doesn't know I like him which is kind of frustrating,I really want to hide my feelings from him but I don't know if I can, we had sex and I understood why I let him because I like him but I don't understand why he went on with it,I mean he has a girlfriend so I don't know, I don't know where this puts our friendship in,I don't know how to act around him anymore,am always conscious,always shy and blushing anyhow now mum,he comes close to me and my brain just turns mushy,I don't think right and I do things out of the heart instead of my head, its overwhelming mum,I don't know,I just don't know,am so confused, he only sees me as a friend then why did he have sex with me,it's frustrating that he doesn't know but at the same time am scared to ask him If he does because am scared of rejection mum,he might only see me as a friend and our friendship might take another turn,I don't know mum,my head isn't in the right place right now,I feel so tired and alone, I want him to be with me here,now but I still want to be away from him as far as possible, I don't know if I should avoid him Or not, or just let things flow,I just don't know mum,I only know I like him a lot.
Breathe baby its okay, now let's solve this issues one by one.
Now you said you like him hunny, that much is clear,you don't know if he likes you, but hunny you would never know unless you ask.
Mum what if he rejects me and tells me he only sees me as a friend,I can't accept that mum,I'd die..now that he doesn't know,I can live with us being normal but once he finds out,I wouldn't want him to just see me as a friend.
Hunny okay don't tell him yet but only for now ,see if his attitude changes before doing anything.
Or probably never ..
Hunny don't say that,you can't bottle up feelings for too long,its not healthy..trust me,I know
But other people do it.
You don't baby,you know you can't keep it in baby,now this doesn't have to put your friendship in any bad place,just be cool with him and act normal, you don't have to act weird around him or avoid him,just be his friend.
I'll try mum but its better to avoid him than to try and hide my feelings from him.
Don't do that baby,just try and talk to him normally without letting your feelings show ..for now baby,just for now,I don't advice you hide your feelings for too long,he might just feel the same way,this was how your father and I almost got a divorce baby because we didn't tell each other how we truly felt on time,don't hide your feelings from jace too long okay?
Okay mum
Thanks I feel much better,I love you mum.
I love you too baby,now about the amazing sex...
