Chapter 14

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                                                                -Liam-

It hasn't even been twenty-four hours and yet I can't stop plotting how to get him back. How am I going to pull off this whole "giving him space" thing that Louis recommended? Last night, I carried him to bed. While I was laying him down, he mumbled "Hey Li" and he sounded so frickin cute, I just couldn't resist his lips. I know he didn't feel it. Because he would have stopped me. Or yelled at me. Or maybe...he would have kissed me back...No! He wouldn't have! And if I keeping having hopes like that, I'll never be able to give him the space he needs. I guess my problem is that I don't want space. I want him as close to me as possible. But I need to think of him first. Before me. I need him to be ready to have a relationship with me. 

"LEE-YUM!" Louis shouts, right in my ear. I jump, and spin around to him

"What, Louis?!" I say urgently, thinking something happened. Then I realize I've been leaning against the backdrop, not joining them on the couch for the photo shoot. And the only open sapce on the couch left, is right next to Niall. Super. I sigh and apologize for spacing out. Once I've plopped down next to him on the couch the camera guy bends down and starts to take pictures again. Niall isn't looking at me, just smiling at the camera. I smile at the camera too, but I know it doesn't reach my eyes. I have too much pain in my chest to be truly happy. How can he not feel it too? I saw the contents of his journal! He really liked me! So what did I do wrong? Where did I mess it all up?

"Alright boys, I want Liam and Niall on the back of the couch, posing one leg bent, just like that! Great! Zayn, I want you and Louis and Harry all spread out, just casual like you're watching TV or something." the photographer directs. We switch our positions, and as I'm sitting on the back of the couch, I tip a bit, trying to catch myself.

"Whoa, careful mate." Niall reaches out and grabs my arm and puts a hand on my waist to steady me. I look up into his crystal blue eyes, and my pulse speeds up. His hand lingers on my waist and he catches my eye. The emotion in them makes my heart break. He's building a wall. I can just tell. Those blue eyes don't have that same love in them as before. What have I done? I push myself into the right position and turn to face the camera, hiding the pain as best I can. If he's building a wall, I'll just need to build a wrecking ball.

We switch positions a bunch of times and mess around with a ton of giant colorful cubes and the entire time I try not to flirt with Niall. To just be a normal friend and bandmate. Let me tell you, that is very difficult. Luckily, it's easy to just turn to the other boys and muck around with them instead of him. Finally, they let us go. By the time we leave its four o'clock and we have to head over to get some early dinner and get over to the radio station. Paul is lame and just gets us Mcdonalds. I munch on my fries and pull out my phone to tell all the fans what we're up to. "Heading over to the radioo station excitedd for you guyss to see the new photos #Nickolodeonphotoshoot :)" I put my phone away and laugh at Harry, who is taking a picture of his Mcdonalds. Louis is trying to steal his chicken nuggets and he slaps his hand away. I watch as Louis pouts and turns away. Harry pulls him back towards his chest and kisses him. Louis smiles and they have a little stare-into-eachothers-eyes moment. I'm not jealous, I'm not jealous! I'm actually really happy for them, it's just that their shenanigans remind of Niall. Who is currently making lovey eyes at his cheeseburger. 

I've already finished my sandwich when we pull up to the radio station. Niall scarfs down the rest of his fries and Louis and Harry split the last chicken nugget. Zayn is on his phone, texting Arianna I'm sure. I'm glad he finally got someone to dote on and lust over. He is really good to girls, so I have no doubt that this will last for awhile. Paul almost shoves us out the door and into the station because we're late. He has a problem with traffic. We're ushered down the hall and into the room where it all takes place. They have five stools set up for us and we take our seats and put on our headsets. The radio station is on commercial and we're on just after that. The guy welcomes us and we joke around a bit until it's time to go on air. 

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