Doubt | BT21×BTS

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They were still sitting on the dining room, no one was even trying to speak something. It was a awkward atmosphere in that room.

Mang finished all of the pancakes he have on his plate and wiped all of the sticky maple syrups on his nose. "Chimmy's pancakes are good right?!" Saying delightfully to them to break the awkward atmosphere.

"Yeah, its better without milk Instead." Shooky wiping himself table napkins. Drying himself up with it.

Rj sighs tiringly. "You shouldn't go down to the table and run all around. Trying to escape the milk cartons like an obstacle and spilling them out of the boxes." Rj told the grumpy cookie in front of him.

Shooky throw the table napkin harshly. "I just wanted more chocolate chips, was that a very big deal? Its just Chimmy didn't count the chips on my body."

He frowned at Shooky and lifted his brows in madness. "I just mean, you can just have told us to grab it. And handed it to you. It doesn't even matter if your chocolate chips on your body was incomplete." Yelling angrily.

Them. Look at them, why can't they notice something?

"Shooky hyung and i gotta go now. Bye." Scooping Shooky by his hands, and let him sit at the top of his head.

They got out of the dinning room as soon as possible.

They were so busy that they can't even do something.

"Hyung, i can help you wash the dishes if you wanted Rj hyu-"

"No need Mang. I can fix the dishes on my own and do what you wanted this day." Rj cut Mang's words. Rj is trying to control his emotions.

Mang smiled playfully still trying his best not to be affected by Rj's expression at him."I'm just going to the dance studio hyung. Bye bye~" he waved very gladly.

Hopping down his seat and walk like everything and what he felt was normal, nothing was a problem.

And there was no even a problem right? He through inside his puzzled thoughts.

As he reached the studio, he locked down the door, Mang relaxed his back at the wall sliding down unconsciously, sitting down instead, looking at his reflections in the mirror.

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tata rushed at Mang's bed jumping up and down trying to wake up the hope of their family."Hyung! Hyung! Hyung! GET UP! WE ARE GOING TO DO SOMETHING TODAY RIGHT?!"

Tata holds Mang's hands rushing to go at the dance studio. But it was so easy for tata extend his arms and carry his sleepy hyung, Mang.

He was Analyzing the familiar place , Rubbing his blurry eyes. "What are you trying to tell me tata? And really? The dance studio. We can just talk about it later when I'm fully awaked."

"HYUNG IS FULLY AWAKE!" Tata shouted like an alarm clock exactly at Mang's ear.

He was annoyed at tata, keeping his anger not to be unleashed. To be honest, tata hurt mang's ears, but he doesn't telling it. "Of course, yeah, fine. Hyung is fully awakened by you." Saying it very calmly, but very annoyed inside.

Excitedly tata saying. "Do you know hyung what day is today?" He paused three seconds and then continued. "its the thing you promised me. And that was this day."

He was puzzled about it. He don't want to disappoint tata just because he didn't know what he promised on him. "Wild?" But basically he forgot what even he did said.

"Hyung, we are going to dance, dancing on my own. Don't you even remembered? You promised me the last time you were practicing to dance." Tata pouted, he was downed, he was expecting things from his hyung.

Mang thinks another song in his mind."But, dancing on my own is a sad song tata. Dance is about being happy. Think about something happy to replace your song choice."

A very little sigh from tata's lips.

"But everyone pretends to be happy."

There's long pause on the whole dance studio. Mang can't reply a thing for a second to tata.

We all know all the things about Mang, special, cheerful, and known for being extra.

He cant even handle sadness, their sadness or even to handle his own sadness.

"Its not that just because a person is dancing he pretends to be happy when its not."

He explained. He explained the best he could do just to make tata change his mind about their serious topic.

"You hyung, you're dancing, aren't you too tired? Are you pretending to be happy when you're not."

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Everything was nostalgic to that room for Mang. Recalling his memories with tata.

But tata was right at that time as Mang thinks at this moment.

"Am i tired? Was i pretending to be happy?" Mang continued.

He stood up and played dancing on my own, twirling and being passionate.

Sweat was jumping out of his body, and even the song was slow Mang was moving his steps rapidly.

Anger, sadness, fear, worried, all was mixed up emotions that can make someone feeling pressured and depressed. At the same time, it wouldn't be handled by one person only.

And especially, when a very happy guy strike that feeling. It would be definitely hard.

He tripped at his movements resulting to fell over to the floor, hugging his knees, tearing up his heart. crying.

"Not all dances were happy."

Wiping his tears, sitting up straight, walking towards the door and exited the studio.

Firmly walking in one particular way.

Quietly, knocking the door, acting like someone was inside of the room.

He paused to walk. "Hi tata" dryly saying as he shivers from the cold air at the room it released.

Continuing his little steps, going nearer and nearer. Facing forward.

"You're right, and i was wrong."

He hugged tata's sleeping bag, snuggling every scent of tata's smell.

Mang exited tata's room after he had some time in his room by his own.

"What did you even do there?"

"Oh, hyung, i just... Pass by the wrong room, i just thought, it was my room. I'm just so sleepy and my eyes were tired, so you don't even need to worry." Mang explained too many.

Too suspicious for his hyung Rj.

"Then why did you tell me so many reasons? Plus. Why is your eyes, really really red. Don't you ever tell me lies Mang."

"Oh, its just, yeah, too tired. Good night hyung." Saying it nicely, kissing his cheeks running away.

Sorry. All, it was a lie. I don't want lies, but everyone will be okay with it.