Midnight Lover . J.Jk[On Going]

ch 13

Aera's p.o.v

" Wake up bitch" the voice pulled my hair.

I slowly opened my eyes only to see that I was only in my undergarments. My eyes widened and negative thoughts started flooding my mind.

Did it really happen? What if something bad happened? What if-

" What are you thinking? Cat's got your tongue?" She rudely remarked

" Wa-water" I croaked out.

She gave me some water after slapping me twice. I'm pretty sure that my body is covered in bruises by now

" Now tell. Why did you move to Seoul?"

" Because I wanted to get rid of my depression" I replied shortly.

" I know it's not just that. Why did you have depression in the first place?" She smirked

That was it for me. She knew she pulled a string.

" Why are you so afraid of drinking?"
And I broke down, memories of my past haunting me all over again.

Flashback.
6 years ago.

It was my birthday and I was happier than ever because I was excited to spend the day with my boyfriend. But all that vanished when I received a call from Baekhyun saying that he won't be able to come due to some family issues.

His family wasn't a perfect one so I didn't object even though I was sad.
I went clubbing and started drinking to relax a bit. One shot turned to six then ten. I kept on drinking until I was finally drunk.

" Hey. You okay?" Baekhun's brother Seojun asked.
" Yes I think" he took me to a room upstairs. I don't know who initiated the kiss but we did something more.

I did the most disgusting thing ever. I slept with my boyfriend's brother.

It spread like wildfire and Baekhyun got to know it. He didn't yell at me, didn't break up but instead forgave me.

But one day when I went to his home, I saw the bathroom door opened. When I got inside, I saw him lying in the bathtub, fallen cold and dead.

I found a letter by his bedside when I visited his apartment two days after his funeral. The letter showed the reasons why he took his life. He was bullied because everyone knew about his relationship with me.

He was ashamed but not of me. He was ashamed of himself because that night he did not have any issues. Instead he was afraid of being judged for being the boyfriend of the most wanted girl in the school. He was afraid of what people would think of him.

He was afraid that he would embarass himself and me. While he was struggling alone, I chose to drink and spend time with his brother. Still he took the blame upon himself and wrote at the end of the letter

Grieve not that I am gone but be happy that you'll find someone even better. Don't think that you are the one to blame but be happy that I loved you more than you did yourself. Move on and be happy love.
- yours lovingly Baekhyun ❤️

Present.

I was crying now. No not crying but howling.

"I am the reason why he's not here. I am the one at fault. He loved me, trusted me, but what did I do? I got drunk and slept with his brother.
I am the reason he was so ashamed of himself. I am the reason he was bullied. I am the worst. I should've died" I shouted.

" No you're not at fault" I turned around and saw Jungkook standing there while pointing a gun at Krystal.

Krystal called for her bodyguards but there was no answer.