the happiness felt like a lie.
i wanted to be done wrong because i've never been done right.
i'd get scared anytime she would tell me she loved me because i was scared of the lies.
i wanted to be hurt so i can get over and finally be free.
but now that i'm alone that freedom i wanted before doesn't seem so free.
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Out of sadness she ends up hurting others.
she has forgotten the meaning of love.
why won't she admit she's been hurt by her mind.
the lies she tells herself.
she feels free of her fears and doubt about if he really loves her.
but now she doubts if she'll ever find love.
what's so free about being alone and in despair.
