I absolutely hate hospitals.
The smell, the look, the feeling of being in one, everything about it makes me anxious.
I can't feel my injuries but i know they're there. I can tell by the looks i'm getting.
I smell and look like shit but it can't be helped i guess.
the throbbing in my body reminds me just how damaged i am.
all i can see is black and white. i don't know who i am anymore or where i'm going but here it all feels like a dead end.
like it was all supposed to end and now i'm in a waiting room. waiting to be judged on if i should go to heaven or hell. but all i can see clearly is white. whoever designed hospitals did a shitty job.
They asked me to talk but i didn't want to. all i want to do is sleep. i don't want him here next to me. all i can hear are my fears, and anxieties. all i can feel is throbbing and the burning of my skin. i feel like ripping all my skin off right now but i understand that wouldn't be reasonable. at least not now. i want to tear myself apart piece by piece but people are there to make sure i don't.
