My Abnormal Heart

Abnormal ba ako?

I've always been a normal girl, with normal friends and normal family. Never have my life been so eventful that it needed to be shared to the world like in MMK or Mag Pa Kailanman.

My name is Amanda Gomez but friends call me Mandy. 21 years of age. I'm a graduating college student, taking up the course of communications in a not so popular college. It's pretty decent if you ask me, its quality education with cheap tuition fee.

Like I said, I'm pretty normal, except the fact that I have never dated anyone because I never experience crushes, infatuation or a sense of romantic love. I do adore a man's beauty but other than that zelts! ZERO.

I envy my friend who experience having crushes, how they swoon over them whenever they pass by. How they blush just by seeing them even from a mile away. Like literally it seems like they have a radar or something, the way they can spot their crushes from the 4th floor all the way from the school lobby, or they can sense that their crushes are nearby even when were surrounded by a lot of people in the mall. They're very cute if I do say so myself. Like a puppy smelling their owners coming home being all excited by wagging their tales. But they make me envious,pPara bang hindi ako normal kasi nga sabi nila "its natural to have a crush, you're practically abnormal if you don't". Well I can't help it! My heart never go "doki doki"

Someone from high school did ask me out, but I don't know what came over me and said "WHY?" I was dead serious too and the guy just slowly backed away.

I thought my life will be un-eventful and never be with someone till I grow old but I was wrong....

(School lobby)

"Girls! Tapus na rin ang semester na ito!", sabi ni Tammy

"Sa dami nating ginawan ngayon na sem parang isang taon na tayo dito", ani ko

"Teka, Tammy si....", hinto ni Cheska

"OHEMGEE! Si Kurt! My kurt!! AHHHH!!!!! Subrang saya ng araw na ito! Natapus na exams natin tas bunos pa siyang nagpakita sa akin!!! AHHH!!!", sigaw ni Tammy

(Subconscious) naikot ko na buong suok sa lobby pero di ko talaga nakita si Kurt.

"Ha? Where? I don't see him.", ani ko

"Girl! Andun sa far end corner room sa 4th floor! EEEIIPP!!!! ANG GWAPO NIYA NGAYON!", gigil ni Tammy

"HUWAW! Ano ba yang mata mo at parang mala telescope! 200/200 ba yang paningin mo?", tawang sabi ko

"Mandy, you'll understand when you too will have a crush on your own", payak ni Cheska

"Ang tanung kalian kaya, we've known each other since we we're in grade 6 and she never talked about a guy other than saying ANG GWAPO niya nuh", sabi ni Tammy

"HAHAHAHA! And remember our high school graduation when Steve Villaflor, The Steve Villaflor, High School 'IT BOY' and Valedictorian of our batch confess his undying love for Mandy while giving his graduation speech and this girl has the audacity to ask..." expressed by Cheska

"W.H.Y. WHY??!! Hahahahahaha", sabay tawa ng dalawa

"Ano ba kayo, is it may fault that I never thought his gestures were for something else? Akala ko mabait lang talaga siya and..." pag-explain ko

"You never felt that doki doki feeling.. Mandy, I know you're not abnormal, you always read mangas, and whenever you read shoujo genres you always make that smile like you're in love, but when we tried showing you live actions or even our favourite Korean drama's WA EPEK SAYO GIRL!", said Cheska

"But whenever I read those stories I feel like it is possible to feel that heart jump", ani ko

"And it does! Ang sayo lang hindi ka nabibighani sa mga 3D people puro ka 2D and you're not an overall otaku since di ka naloloka sa mga anime character pero dzaii why haven't you fallen in love? Even crush waaaz WALA", prankang sabi ni Tammy

"I don't know, abnormal lang nga siguro puso ko", sagot ko sa dalawa

"Anyway since fully charge na ako at ang date ni Cheska ay bukas pa punta muna tayo sa mall", ani ni Tammy

The conversation ended but the topic hasn't left us since grades school, lalo na nung nagconfess sa akin ni Steve, it became a big deal. I was even bullied through social media by Steve's fans but it slowly settled down since I didn't responded.

​I always question myself, why I haven't fallen in love, why I haven't felt my heart jumped, blush with anticipation whenever my crush would pass. How wonderful must that feeling be, to be in love, to be love or to simple adore a person like he's the world to you.