poetry and prose

definitions

i know we're not friends.

friend (n.)

a relationship of mutual affection

and by that, i know we don't share mutual affection.

mutual (adj.)

(of a feeling or action) experienced or done by each of two or more parties towards the other or others.

because mutual means common, and the affection i have for you is completely different than the one i know you have for me.

and the back of my brain is telling me differently that this isn't true. but even if it wasn't, i'd still be writing this.

because if we're not friends, we're strangers.

stranger (n.)

a person with whom one does not know or whom one is not familiar

because i am not familiar with you.

i'm talking to a bubble. i'm speaking to you through a telephone during a snowstorm. i'm talking to your assistant telling me that you'll be right with me but that never ends up happening.

i'm infatuated. i know that for sure. again. this isn't love unless it's  not unrequited but it's not like that. 

infatuation (n.)

an intense but short-lived passion or admiration for someone or something.

that isn't a good philosophy though, that infatuation is love only when it's  returned, but it makes sense to me at the moment.

i'm infatuated and it won't go away. but hey, it's short-lived. that means it'll be gone soon.

i'll move on, you know how i am. and i'm scared to move on because i might move on to your best friend. it's kind of like a pattern.

i mean, i never thought i would develop an infatuation on you but then it happened so who knows what possibilities my heart can muster up.

so either, give me closure and let it go away or take a chance on me.

time's ticking.

this one's more eccentric than my usual but i've kind of been going through some stuff with people, and i got the urge to write this and it isn't totally personal so i'm posting it.

hope you guys enjoyed it :)

sandra