Am I okay?

The thought of the first hey is like butterflies on a bright day
The thought of the first call is oceans sweeping you away
The thought of the first hand hold, the first hug, the first kiss, is memories unforgettable

To loose it all is a fire burning alive
The sight of him with someone else is like living in hell

Looking at him laughing and looking at her how he used to be with you is a knife piercing the heart
Seeing him happy but knowing it's not because of you is a hurricane of emotions

Every moment, every text, and to have it all back is a dream
that
won't
come true

The feeling of being alone is like walking in an endless circle
The feeling of being left is like an aunt struggling to survive

It's worse when you only see one answer, one solution to your problem

But you're stronger,
You have to be

But to end it all right now is something you wish
To take the pain and bury it away
Hoping the hurting stops

If he cared he wouldn't have left
If he was right he wouldn't be breaking you

But maybe he's an acceptation

Because he feels right when everything else is wrong

Acting one way like you're special and you mean something and then she walks in and it's like you don't exist anymore, you've shrunk down and become invisible and no one even knows you're gone

Hurting is like an empty hole sending shivers down your spine and then being lit with all the fury in the world beneath your feet

Please let the hurting stop

Please let the pain end
It's swallowing me whole it's taking me in too deep

I'm scared
                    I won't get out
I'm scared
                       I'll never
                                            Be
                                                    Okay
                                                                A G A I N