it's almost been a year. i just realized. almost a year without you. it still doesn't feel real to me. when i think of shinee i still think of you up there with the boys. shinee is still good but angel they were so much better with you. nothing will be the same without your voice. i want to see you up on those comeback stages. i want to see your little goofy smile when taemin acts like a brat. i want to hear your laugh when minho makes a dumb joke. i just want you back. i've been watching your performance of she is, and you always did so well. the thing you did with your hands everytime you said "oh, she is" i'll never forget. i think what hurts me most about not seeing you again is knowing that that's it. there will never be new content of you to make so many shawols' day better. no matter how old a picture is of you, no matter how overused it is, i'll always smile when i see it. i'll never get to see you perform poet | artist live. i'll never get to see your face when you sing before our spring and tear up a little bit. i'll never get to see your cute lil dances for shinin'. i want everything back. i want you back.
