My Little Red Notebook

BROKEN

"Heartbreaks happen to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but you find yourself moving on"

-Nicholas Sparks

Forever is a word that is so impossible,
With your smile that is so adorable,
And it makes my life miserable,
Because I know in the end, you won't catch me after all.

The word itself makes me tremble,
Cause it reminds me of you,
The way you hurt and left me in blue,
And when you broke my heart into two.

At first, I thought you have the same feeling,
With your words and actions that is so caring,
I appreciate and thankful of what you are showing,
But you didn't mean it and denied it or not, I am assuming.

Assuming is the best word describes me,
For I believe liars and promises,
To the person who don't care and see,
Of this painful feeling that you brought with me.

Your words took me by storm,
Strong beyond the norm,
I thought my feelings were reciprocated,
But you said only kindness was enacted.

The pain that you brought with me is just the beginning,
I thought it was just he have no feelings,
But when I found he is in the stage of courtship,
Correct me if I am wrong, he is already in a relationship.

You're already dating with someone else,
You're happy,I can tell,
You deserve to be happy,
While I rot in misery.

Seeing both of you together,
Walking with grace and laughter,
And knowing that you are fine,
I want to celebrate it with a wine.

A wine that can forget him,
A wine that can say that I am already okay,
A wine that can complete me again,
And a wine that can relieve this wounded heart.

Getting drunk is my one way,
To forget you just for a day,
But honestly, a day isn't enough,
To erase this feeling of love.

But wines like these are hard to find,
They're the rarest of all kind,
I know I'll never be able to find,
Someone like you, the sweetest wine.

I am so excited to lay in my bed,
To think of you freely and no one can end,
With our talks, laughters, stories and lessons that we read,
And I will not regret with the time we spend.

Assignments? My hatest thing that I'd encounter,
But now I want it to come over,
Because of this creates our friendship,
When we first met like we are in the cru ship.

I am now reminiscing on the memories we had together,
So much emotion linger,
But I'm crying not on the situation at hand,
But on the happy memories we had.

We became close, closer and closer,
And everyone says that we are perfect lovers,
I won't deny that when we were together,
Hoping that it will lasts until forever.

But our happiness was short lived,
You began distancing from me,
Is it because of my friends?
Who teased you as my boyfriend?

I don't have the right to blame,
Who am I? I'm just a simple friend of him,
Sometimes I exist,
But most of the time, I am nothing.

To move away my pain,
I stay in the middle of the rain,
Where no one else can see that I am dying slowly,
With this painful feeling that I carried secretly.

The pain that you brought with me again,
It is just the middle of this inside pain,
Where you treat me in vain,
That cause my self-confidence to wane.

You left me like a shattered dust,
On a sand by a strong gust,
There's nothing for me to stay,
I'll just watch you walk away.

Walking away is the only way,
Moving on is hard to do and to say,
I will throw my pains in the bay,
And I will always pray for you every Sunday.

I am happy because I already moved on. 2 years ago, I thought he will reciprocate my feelings but I was wrong. He is just sweet. I'd expect too much. I know I am wrong but I'm just a girl who falls for a wrong boy. As of now, we're friends. It's not awkward anymore.

A/N: This poem is dedicated to the guy whom I liked 2 years ago. Continue to read my stories guys. Thank you for your support.😊