Love of an Angel

UNBOXING HER GIFT

As I got home I opened the box, it contained stuffs. But what caught my attention is the CD. So I played it on my DVD Player.

“Hi my honey, my Andreus!!! Yeah, I know that I already don’t have the right to call you that way, pero I promise last na to.” She happily greeted.

  “First and for most I want to thank you for giving me your time, I know I’ve been unreasonable pero I’m so desperate for you na kahit sa mga last days ko gusto kong ikaw ang nasa tabi ko, that’s how I Love You, I can be so selfish just to fulfill what I want, but now I decided to let you go. I want to be selfless for the last time, I want to give you your real happiness that I can’t provide.” Funny, she is now ready to let me go, but I don’t want her to let me go. “We were in our freshman college when we became lovers and believe it or not, that day I considered myself as the luckiest girl who ever exist. Having you is such a wonderful feeling, you are the best thing that I have and from the day I gave you my yes I already promised to myself that you’re the only one I’ll treasure the most for the rest of my life, well aside from my parents and Cherry. I actually made it, kasi kita mo nga naman I’m already dying pero ikaw parin ang tinitibok nito (she placed her hands at her chest).” She said and I started to cry my heart out as I continued on watching her video “I’m so sorry if I’ve been a burden to you this past days, kasi alam kong nahahati na ang oras mo sa iyong girlfriend. And speaking of you girlfriend, sana maging masaya ka sa piling niya. I am now giving you your freedom but please don’t cheat against her, because being cheated is the worst thing that every girl will never wish to experience. WORST IS EVEN UNDERSTATEMENT. Tell her that I am asking for her forgiveness kasi pilit kitang ipinaglalaban kahit na alam kong sa simula pa lang talo na ako, at kahit na alam kong anytime from now mawawala na ako. Oo matagal ko ng alam na bilang na lang araw ng buhay ko I had anemia and you know it, but things got complicated after we graduated. We already had our jobs when I found out that I already have Leukemia. Of course, I fought against it kasi may rason ako, and it’s you. But we all know that I have a weak immune system and that’s why hindi ko kinaya.. Sorry kung hindi ko nasabi sayo, I don’t want to be your burden, you’ve been busy with your work and whenever you are free, I am not, kasi sa mga araw na yun naka schedule ang check-up ko. And maybe that’s the reason why you had looked for another, but don’t worry coz I am not bitter, in fact I am happy for you kasi alam kong magiging masaya ka kahit na wala na ako, alam kong magiging msaya ka sa puder niya. Today is our 5th day based from the agreement, akala mo siguro tulog na ako noong umalis ka na pero hindi pa… two days before our fifth anniversary… silly me, I still fantasize our fifth year anniversary kahit na wala na tayo, kahit na alam kong baka di na ako umabot sa araw na yun.. Well maybe it’s a part of my nature, to fantasize impossible things. Kaya nga kahit alam kong imposible na narinig kong sinabi mo ang mga katagang matagal ko ng gutsong marinig, pinapaniwalaan ko paring totoo… well, I just heard you telling me that you love me, call me insane and whatever names pero that made me happy. I am so happy that you let me lie on your shoulder. I even thought that if I’ll die that way, I’ll be the happiest dead person coz I had the chance to lie on my only love’s arm… I love you yesterday, I still love you today, and I’ll always love you tomorrow and forever my Andreus. Thank you for loving me back before, and that’s the reason why I am letting you go…” she paused for a while to wipe the tears that is escaping from her eyes.. how I wish I’ve been the one to wipe those tears.. I’ve been so so useless… I already feel useless!

“It’s like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you.
It’s one in a million the chances of feeling the way we do.” She beautifully sing our song, the song being played when we had our first dance.

“Maybe this is how we are supposed to end and maybe this is now the epilogue of our book. But if chances come and you feel like you miss me, just look at the stars on a dark night, I’ll be one of them. I promise to become your guardian angel and see you from afar.”  She said. Then the video ended…

Napasabunot na lang ako sa aking buhok para ma release ang aking nararamdaman. I am so frustrated with my own self!!! Napakalaki kong gago kasi di ko man lang siya naalagaan ng maayos. She already gave me the sign when she offered the seven day agreement but I just wasted it! I should have at least showed her how I genuinely love her, how I wanted to live this life with her, and how lucky I am coz she’s by my side… I should have known better…
I made my way into the terrace and started to look at the stars… I searched for the brightest one before I close my eyes and let out a huge sigh.. “just look at the stars on a dark night, I’ll be one of them. I promise to become your guardian angel and see you from afar.” I heard her say those words….

I slowly opened my eyes and stared at the brightest one. “I know I’m unfair. But I never see this coming. Madaya ako, pero mas madaya ka..” I started to say, maybe they thought I’m insane coz I talk with no one here, but the hell I care!!! I want to talk to my Angelique “sana man lang sinabihan mo ako noon ng mas maaga, I should have gave you my full attention, I could have even gave up my career just to take you a good care.. I’m such a useless boyfriend and I know I don’t deserve you coz you’re an angel. All you ever did is to love me, but I just failed you back.. I’m sorry honey, I really felt sorry… I know that this one is a lesson for me but I think I am too late to learn, because I already lose you. I wish you knew how I love you so dearly."

"You are my song, playing so softly in my heart,
I wish for you. you seem so near yet so far.
I hope and I pray. You’ll be a part of me someday,
I know down inside. You are mine, and I’m yours true love.
Or am I dreaming?” I sing wishing that she could actually hear me

“I love you my Angelique.. I’ll miss you a lot. Being kept by your arms, cared by you and loved by your heart is like having the love of an angel…”