"Hazel Grace" I hear him call my name, his voice rough, as if he was struggling to let the words out, struggling to let the pain out.
His blue orbs stare into my green ones and he almost brings my bleeding heart into my cold under oxygenated hands a...
"Hazel Grace" he stammered again, his voice still broken, and there again, I felt like all the oxygen has been knocked out of my lungs as he timidly blubbered his next question. As if he was scared to let it out.
As if he already knew he didn't wanted to know the answer.
"Is it how soon a forever dies?"
I felt too frozen to utter a word, because even the thought of a life without him felt like a journey to death and I know that death is all I ever wanted. But now, when death is knocking at my door, I don't want to open it.I just want to turn back, I want to live,with him.
I want to sleep here peacefully on the rooftop with his fingers intertwined in mine, all the while we watch the stars. But I know that I had to let him go, I know that pain demands to be felt and the only way that he and I could escape it, escape our pain, is death. I know I couldn't be selfish but right now I have to tell him that our infinity is bigger than other infinities. I have to tell him that he is my infinity.
"Augustus, every moment I spent with you felt no less than a forever. I felt my forever the day we met and you called me beautiful, I've felt it the first time you kissed me in the Anne Frank House, I've felt it the day you drove me to your house like a maniac even though you've already failed your driving test three times, I feel it everytime you interwine your fingers with mine, I've felt it the day you told me that you would write me a sequel to The Impreial Affliction with zombies and sacrifice better than that shitty writer ever could, I felt it when we egged Monica's car without a care, I feel it everytime you tell me about your undying love for zombies. I feel it everyday in your laughter.I felt it the day you told me that you're in love with me Augustus Waters."
I breathed. I let it all out with every bit of courage left in me as I felt his cold fingers, softly wiping away my tears. Oh, they always have.
"Every moment with you is a forever Gus because as you always say that you're in a roller coaster that only goes up and trust me my ride with you have been breathtakingly enchanting."
And there he gave me another forever as his lips attacked mine. His lips tasted of tears and happiness, purity and innocence, promise and trust, dead yet alive. Oxygen left our lungs and for a moment we both forgot how to breathe. And in that moment, I knew he's always going to be my forever. He always have.
"This is to the most beautiful forever."
He kissed my forehead, maybe for the last time. I don't know, I never have.
"Okay?"
"Okay." . .
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So here I end my book. I don't know what made you read this book or why you read it, but here I thankyou with all my heart for reading it❤🌍. -Neh❤
