Sanders Sides One Shots

Anxceit (I think that's what you call it)

What can I say? I want to see something fluffy for this ship because I feel like both of them are just misunderstood sometimes. (This is just my opinion. Please don't judge me 😂)

Virgil's POV

I felt more on edge than usual. I knew exactly why but I couldn't tell that to any of the others, not even Patton. After what happened, I wouldn't dream of telling them why I was on edge. They would think of me as a traitor... None of them realised how emotionally torn I was. I couldn't deal with all my emotions. They were way too much to deal with. Plus, they all contradicted each other. Half of my mind was telling me that fitting in with Roman, Logan and Patton was good enough for me, but the other half urged me to go back to the "dark" sides.

I missed the old times. I didn't know why. I hated being the bad guy, but I loved hanging out with some of the "darker" aspects of Thomas. They weren't that bad and they made me feel comfortable and safe. Sure, the others were chill, but I missed Deceit the most. We really bonded. Seeing him show up in Thomas's vlog sent a surge of panic through me. Because when I saw him stood there, I remembered all those past times. I remembered when we used to hang out.

I had spent the past few days simply wondering. Wondering what Deceit thought when he saw me fitting in with Logic, Morality and Creativity. Did he feel betrayed? Did he hate me? Did I lose my way? Was I meant to stay away from the more positive influences on our host? Why did I ever leave the comfort of my room? If I had just stayed away from everyone, I could've avoided all this. I wanted to go back but I wanted to stay. What was I meant to do?

"Virgil, kiddo, you look a bit spaced out. Everything good?" Patton perked up. I jumped in surprise. I forgot I was with him. I was so lost in the maze of my own thoughts that I didn't even realise that Patton was still sat there rambling about cats. I rubbed my temples and internally face palmed. Now he would think something was up! I couldn't tell him all my thoughts of leaving, it'd definitely break his heart.

"It's nothing. I'm just tired. I'll go back to my room." I mumbled half heartedly. I got up from the sofa, but was instantly pulled back down by Patton. I bit my lip and wanted to tear some paper to get some of the stress out. Patton stared at me with heavy concern and I tried my best to avoid his intent gaze.

"Kiddo, something's not right. You've been acting weird the past couple days. Do you need to let anything out?" asked Patton quietly.

"No. I'm fine." I blurted out anxiously. His concern grew and I felt myself losing it. My true emotions were showing. I was going to crack. I had to leave before this escalated into something I couldn't handle, "Let me go, Patton."

"Why would I let you go when I know you're not fine?" He retorted.

"Patton. Let me go. I'm serious."

He shook his head

"So am I."

I felt his grip on my wrist get tighter

"Let me go."

I tried to pull away from his grasp to run away

"No."

I felt a breakdown coming

"Patton, let me go!"

I clenched my fist several times to bottle the stress

"Virgil, I'm not letting you go."

I wanted to scream

"Just let me go!"

Last chance...

"No."

Then I snapped. Then I lost it.

"PATTON! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO PRY INTO MY BUSINESS! YOU DON'T KNOW A THING ABOUT ME! YOU ACT LIKE YOU CARE BUT IF YOU REALLY DID, YOU'D JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND ACCEPT THAT I DON'T HAVE TO TURN TO YOU FOR EVERYTHING BECAUSE I'M NOT WORTHLESS!"

I saw his features express nothing but shock. His eyes began to water as he released my hand. When I got up and started to walk away from him, I was faced with Logan, who looked purely confused for the first time in his life.

"What?! Do you have a problem or something?!" I snapped as I stormed forward and brushed past him harshly. I entered my room and slammed the door shut. All of this because I was internally fighting myself.

I dropped to my knees and began to hyperventilate. I couldn't deal with it. What had I done? I'd yelled at Patton. He didn't deserve that; he was just trying to help me. I clutched my top tightly and put my other hand on the ground for support as my vision became blurry and I began to feel light headed. The undefined blur of movement around me scared me. Who was it? I couldn't hear anything. I felt like I was drowning. I didn't understand what was happening. But soon enough, I faded into an unconscious state.

*——time skip——*

I woke up and was faced with a person hovering above me. As my vision cleared a little, I saw who it was. I scrambled back in a panic.

"D-Deceit?! What are you doing here?!" I yelled out. He seemed to wince at how loud I was and instantly gestured for me to be quiet.

"Be quiet. I don't want the others to know I'm here. Anyway, straight to the point, are you alright?" Deceit asked. Shock infected my thoughts. Deceit was being nice to me? Even after I brushed him off in the vlog? That was weird and a huge surprise.

"...y-yeah. I'm fine. But why are you—" I was cut off when he knelt beside me and covered my mouth.

"Don't even think I would ever give you the cold shoulder. I've known you for years, so I wouldn't dream of being mean to you. I have feelings too, you know." He explained.

"How do I know you're not lying to me?" I questioned sceptically. He rolled his eyes but smiled slightly nonetheless.

"I don't have to lie all the time just because I'm the embodiment of deceit." He smirked. I chuckled slightly and punched his shoulder lightly.

"Yeah, sorry about that." I grinned.

This felt natural. Acting close and friendly with Deceit felt easier than bonding with any of the others. For a while, we sat on the floor of my room talking and cracking jokes. For the first time in ages, I felt at ease. Everything felt simple. But then I remembered Patton. I had been so cruel to him.

"I wish I didn't yell at Patton. He's a good guy." I sighed. Deceit put a reassuring arm around my shoulders.

"Knowing Patton, if you apologise, all will be well. If you're truly sorry, everything will turn out okay."

I took a deep breath and took those words in. It'd be alright. He was right. For someone who was meant to represent lies, he sure told a lot of home truths.

"Yeah. I'll stop worrying for now. I'll patch things up with Patton later. Thanks Deceit."

"Dimitri." He said suddenly.

"What?" I asked in puzzlement. That was a bit random to say.

"My name... it's Dimitri." Deceit elaborated briefly. My eyes widened a margin. Dimitri was his name? After so long of theorising what it could have been, he decided to just tell me. It made me feel closer to him. I didn't have the words to explain what I was feeling so I just shot him a subtle grin.

"I hate to break up this little reunion of ours, Dimitri, but I need to fix things with Patton." I explained with a shaky voice. He sensed my nerves and he squeezed my hand lightly.

"Good luck. I'm in my room when you need me." He said. I hugged him for a brief moment and then I got up and stepped out my room in search for Patton. I was happy. I didn't need to fight with myself over who I should spend time with. I could spend time with everyone I wanted to. Deceit was the one who showed me that and I was grateful to have him on my side.